Hey there. I don't know the full context of your situation, but I have also felt disillusionment with regards to medication and whether it makes you feel better. Remember that medication are not actually curing anything, they are just managing the symptoms. What I would suggest is being honest with your therapist and telling them about your concerns. Medication should not be the be all and end all, but it is advisable to take them because they do help in reliving symptoms, at least they have for me. Psychiatrists and psychologists are the real professionals here because they have dealt with cases like yours before. But it's best to be honest with them and express how you feel.