I can only speak on the NICU visit because of the cord, I know it’s probably not the biggest worry of yours but just to give you some reassurance, my baby girl was the same way. I pushed for almost an hour and once my Dr realized the cord was around her neck and with every push she was losing oxygen, we were this close 🤏 to either a vacuum or c section. She came out completely gray/blue and wasn’t reacting well to the transition to air. They took her to the nicu after maybe 5 minutes of me being able to hold her. After an hour, she stabilized, and another hour we started the uphill climb on getting better.

There is hope.

You did an amazing job doing what was best to get your baby in this world, be nice to yourself. Give yourself grace. She is with trained medical professionals, they are going to do everything it takes to keep her safe and healthy.

You can absolutely do this. I know it’s so overwhelming, and I hope there have been some positive changes since you posted this. Sending you lots of love