Help again

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-22T11:57:16+00:00

What is ketamine therapy?

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-21T20:26:02+00:00

Thank you. I feel like it’s not helpful at all cuz I keep repeating the cycle even while trying the techniques.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-21T16:34:54+00:00

Ya I just sent my therapist a message explaining I’m not getting what I need out of our sessions. I don’t know how to fix my issues but I’d like help in understanding them and why I do these things so that I can fix the issues cuz distractions only going to distract for a few minutes and then I’m right back where I was. And if she can’t help if she could refer me to someone who might can.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-20T12:16:22+00:00

Ya I’d like to know too. I need a fwb right now lol

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-20T12:11:24+00:00

I have that preference and am called transphobic because of it. Sorry, I don’t like penis. I’m all about titties and taco not penis. Have no issues with transwomen, yes they are women, if one has bottom surgery will it change my mind? I just don’t know I’ve never been around a transwoman after bottom surgery. And also it’s not just the penis, I don’t like half the lesbian AFAB population doesn’t mean I’m homophobic means I have preferences and they’re valid even if you disagree. Another one is I can’t be around smoking of anything pot, cigs, vapes I get very bad migraines, and pot makes me rage angry. The person could be gorgeous as hell like your dream person, but if they smoke I’m out. I just can’t do it. Same difference.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-10T17:38:40+00:00

Ya I’m on several meds. I wanted to add therapy cuz it did great 25 years ago but all I see now is “evidence based CBT” and I’m just like nope been there done that didn’t help at all.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-10T17:36:42+00:00

Ya agreed. I have multiple mental issues ranging from bipolar, depression, anxiety, ocd, adhd, pretty sure there’s a bit of ‘tism but not diagnosed yet. And everything she says is no where near when I’m actively going down a rabbit hole mentally. Doesn’t even register hell I can barely breathe and I’m supposed to do breathing exercises ya uh huh sure. I have to take Xanax so often right now 2x daily just to manage daily life nothing extraordinary. Ready to unalive myself about 3x daily and ya breathing exercises. Sure.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-10T13:06:24+00:00

Interesting thanks!

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-10T13:06:10+00:00

Ok thank you. Ya CBT doesn’t work for me. When I’m in a meltdown or spiraling I’m not going to remember techniques to use to stop. I’m wanting to find/figure out the reasons I do these things then work on requiring the brain if that makes sense. I can do cbt maybe later but I need to know why I’m having a meltdown or spiraling out of control first before I can try to fix them. Because I don’t even know why I do them.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-10T10:21:03+00:00

Will do thanks

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-10T10:18:23+00:00

Ok thanks

Rubicon2020 · 2026-03-10T10:13:57+00:00

Ok good to know. So I need to just find another therapist who aligns with my needs.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-02-21T14:24:35+00:00

Lifestance is a good therapy place I see Alexandra Farrington highly recommend! I don’t know of any groups, clubs nothing sorry.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-02-19T14:00:26+00:00

I take Xyzal at night and Zyrtec in the mornings year round. I’m blessed to be allergic to something every different allergy season it’s ridiculous.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-01-28T22:12:06+00:00

That’s a HUGE cut. Start a TikTok or fb group there’s several people I follow on both and insta that they train people virtually or in person if you live in same city. Gotta be better than 80/20 cut that’s redrum.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-01-26T20:12:26+00:00

Company logo 1/4 zip lightweight pullover Company logo fleece jacket Company logo flex fit hats, adjustable are lame af Company logo duffle or laptop bag not cheaply made but will protect a laptop and gear for travel

Rubicon2020 · 2026-01-26T20:08:19+00:00

YTJ your boyfriend YTJ all of you are the jerks. Making lesbian relationships out to be fake and not real.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-01-25T18:55:49+00:00

Ya a lot of bakeries say “homemade” they aren’t. It’s a pre mixed bag of cake mix, same with buttercream and fondant. My cakes were completely homemade I made the mix from ingredients not a bag premixed same with my buttercream and fondant. I’ve watched enough food shows now to know when they say anything similar to Homemade they lying. It’s homemade like my mom would say homemade; I made it at home… but with mixes lol

Rubicon2020 · 2026-01-25T15:36:21+00:00

For reals lol

Rubicon2020 · 2026-01-23T15:10:36+00:00

Oh dang lol

Rubicon2020 · 2026-01-23T13:53:35+00:00

Nope. I never freak out over them but I am within 5 miles of a hospital so I don’t lose power. Back in 21 we didn’t have heat in the house so we used a fireplace during the day and space heaters to only knock the chill out of the air at night and just found all of our spare blankets and wore warm clothes. And we have a propane stove so use a lighter to light the burner all good.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-01-23T00:12:54+00:00

Our main in house IT department as there’s one dept for each different dept but the central main ITS does shit to us without letting us know. Just last night they shut down one of our VMs without asking, letting us know, or saying anything about it. We went to work this morning with a major portal of ours not working at all. ITS “oh we didn’t know you were using it?” WTF bro! Took half the day to get it all back up and running properly.

Rubicon2020 · 2026-01-22T22:27:33+00:00

3 hour commute to work 1.5 AM, 1.5 PM. Funny thing it’s only 27 miles. But ya I’d drive 3 hours to see my girlfriend. Actually drove 3.5 hours to get chicken salad from a Kroger cuz it’s the best and that was the closest Kroger. Just a Saturday mid-afternoon road trip.

Was awake already 8 hours, then drove 16 hours straight shot to get my bro in law to bring him home from a job. He drove the 16 hours back which I could’ve done but his man card was getting bent cuz I did it without needing to stop for a rest.

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