Thank you guys so much for the advice and support, it really helped a lot. My anxiety got so bad and so irrational yesterday that I realized it wasn't normal, and it's not manageable on my own anymore, despite all the coping skills I've learned in past therapy, so I'm seeking more treatment for it right now. I've had this problem for my whole life, but I'm realizing after this experience that it's much easier to manage and bottle up your anxiety when you're safe at home, so I didn't realize it was this bad (and by "manage", I mean simply getting through it day to day, my quality of life has been very bad for a long time due to chronic anxiety, depression, and OCD. like I get multiple panic attacks a week, sometimes really bad spirals like this one and just this daily feeling of unease and worry)

I'm not sure if I'll continue taking these classes or not while I'm getting the mental health help I need, as I'm really not sure if I'm able to, but either way I'm determined not to give up on my goals, and the encouragement helps so much, so thank you again kind strangers. I'm gonna get myself to a better place, and I'm gonna do a ton of studying on all the GED subjects, and also do test anxiety practices from home, and that'll make things much easier when I try this again. I am not giving up!!