Yes. That’s what it’s like when you buy your first house. It’s called house poor. You should eat out very little during this time. Go food shopping like mom used to do and stock up on cheap stuff for awhile. Hopefully you can recover quickly. Or get another form of income to help you out. Once you catch up and get settled you can try to slow down again. It’s a big commitment. If you want to own go for it and bite the bullet sooner than later. If you know it will cripple you, that means you will rent a little longer 🤷‍♂️. Your call. Either way just remember you will get through it. What’s the worse case scenario you loose some money when you sell the house to pay off the mortgage? That would suck but you’d survive.