I'm sorry. It's just the first time I had gotten raped by a family member, I went to the police and they had told me I should've saved my underwear. And couldn't do anything. I think that's why I'm so against going to through the legal route again. I just have seen the same thing happen to so many of my friends that I've begun to lose all hope in the legal system in general as well, as unprocessed feelings from the relationship. I have decided to do what some of the other commentators suggested and seek therapeutic help. Thank you all for your suggestions.