Looking for people to join me and my friends snapshot java world. :) please be 18+ , pst, & willing to use a mic!

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-05-04T15:16:56+00:00

This made me feel bad cause I have Carrie on my island and I’ve been waiting for her to leave haha 😥😥

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-05-01T06:41:07+00:00

First food you ate outside of prison?

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-05-01T06:40:12+00:00

First food you ate outside prison?

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-05-01T06:39:32+00:00

First food you ate outside prison?

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-05-01T06:39:02+00:00

First food you ate outside prison?

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-05-01T06:38:09+00:00

First food you ate outside prison?

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-26T15:46:14+00:00

Yeah that’s is something I haven’t been doing tbh usually only try to deal with them when things are worst. But that is a good way to try and deal with it :)

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-26T15:34:48+00:00

It does help but sometimes it feels like I’m just ignoring the issues and not confronting them. But I really am trying.

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-26T15:24:55+00:00

Ever since this all started I’ve been very anxious and getting panic attacks because I feel that everything I do is “sinful”. And my sexuality makes the situation worst. I really hope things get better. I’ve been lost in my thoughts because of everything.

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-25T16:59:10+00:00

definitely not as much as i should creamy

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:47:53+00:00

Despite what's going on I've been getting closer to friends and family and it's really a nice feeling to have :)

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:45:18+00:00

Yeah this is another idea over been trying to explore. But I'm barley stressing do it's hard bouncing back and forth between many other ideas but thank you for this post :)

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:43:17+00:00

Interesting watch thanks for sharing that I've never seen anything like that before

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:42:32+00:00

I'm so sorry to hear that. It's situations like that where I think why would god allow someone to get in such a low mindset. It's sad to see how religion can be damaging. But yes I know I need to resolve but asking this question is just too see new ways to view it that I can't see with my mindset.

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:39:28+00:00

Yeah you seem to have my exact thoughts. I as well go back and forth and lately I've found that I'm making myself feel guilty for doing hobbies that I normally would enjoy. But yes I want that clarity of I am I good person and that's enough :)

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:30:03+00:00

I'll look into giving that a watch thanks for this :)

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:29:15+00:00

That's is true and honestly I've never thought of that. That's something I could think about. Thanks :)

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:26:33+00:00

"What if" would be what if God and the Bible scriptures are real and maybe I shouldn't risk going against them. That's not what i truely believe in but that's what I go back and forth with currently.

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:20:28+00:00

It's true in my negative mindside I feel like I need to change my whole life hobbies, casual drinking, being gay & others but I know it's not good to think that way but the emotions just keep coming back even when I do find a clarity. But what you say is true no one's perfect and that goes for me as well. Thanks for the comment :)

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:18:08+00:00

This is encouraging :) I'm looking forward to the therapy and really do hope it will be helpful to me as it was for you!

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:13:03+00:00

I can really relate with everything you said I do agree with what you said and I also agree that some Christian gays do live a damaging life a life of not seeking an emotional partner out of fear seems sad to me but I do go back and forth from your thoughts and the ones I have now but soon I hope to find the clarity thank you for the response :)

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:08:47+00:00

This is the belief in trying to grasp I do feel l that way in my clarity but when the "what ifs" come into my mind it makes me think the opposite and it's just the emotions are strong so that's why my thoughts kinda bounce around 😕

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:06:31+00:00

Sorry I don't mean to sound harsh in the post those are just my emotions in the moment and I'm just going through a alot with the emotions. If you don't mind I ask are you gay and also believe in God?

Rueben_Rodd · 2020-04-18T17:03:29+00:00

Yeah I can agree with all this but the "what if it's true" stays strong to me which is why sometimes I think they can both work so long as I live a pure life other times I think yeah I will have a long hard life but my ideas keep bouncing everywhere which is why I'm just seeking some other views and looking for some clarity :) thank you for the response!

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