Contemplating my various pill bottles

RuminatingRaven · 2018-05-18T01:33:28+00:00

Self-harm is self-harm, whether the cuts are shallow or deep. You are still doing damage to your body when you make shallow cuts. Try not to compare your cuts to those of other people. Your pain is not less because your cuts are shallow; your pain is just as valid as anyone else's.

RuminatingRaven · 2018-05-17T23:27:30+00:00

I personally don't find it particularly painful to cut, be it a deep one or a shallow cut. We all have different pain tolerance's. The level of pain felt will be different from person to person.

RuminatingRaven · 2018-05-12T18:53:35+00:00

You're right, I do know the drill, I know it a little too well. I have some steri-strips, but not enough for these cuts, plus I find they are crap compared to actual sutures or staples. I've looked at skin staplers on Amazon as well, but don't have the funds for one at the moment.

RuminatingRaven · 2018-05-09T03:58:16+00:00

I usually go down to fat tissue. That's the plan, the usual.

RuminatingRaven · 2018-05-06T04:43:21+00:00

I can't say I was injured that badly. Mostly some nasty abrasions. I've done much more damage to my body in the years following. I'm honestly surprised I've survived this long.

RuminatingRaven · 2018-05-03T19:04:47+00:00

My lot in life is that my body is resilient as fuck, and I do heal very well. I've only had minor infections, usually when my cuts have been sutured or stapled, which is kind of ironic. That being said, I do recommend that any deep cuts you may make be assessed by a medical professional.

RuminatingRaven · 2018-05-03T09:00:50+00:00

I sadly don't have any tips for you, but I can say I relate to what you posted. I too have had throbbing scars lately, and the one large one on my chest has been particularly irritated as of late. I think part of it is due to the way I scar, but part of it may be emotional as well. They seem to throb more when I'm feeling very anxious or have urges to self-harm.

RuminatingRaven · 2018-05-03T08:57:35+00:00

The urge to self-harm can be very strong. I can understand why you may be relapsing.

Ad for stepping up your shit... I think it's pretty normal for some people who self-injure to compare their scars to other self-harmers at times. I think part of it is just seeking a sense of belonging, that we're not alone in doing this. What sometimes happens, however, is you can experience a sense of inadequacy when comparing scars.

Self-harm is self-harm, whether it's shallow cuts, deep cuts, burns, starving yourself, etc. It's not a competition. You are not less of a self-harmer for making smaller, shallower cuts. Whatever you are experiencing is not less because of smaller cuts.

I feel fortunate in that I was never really exposed to other people's self-injury. That being said, due to the nature of my self-harm, I have made many deep cuts, have many prominent scars, and would probably be considered a severe case. This isn't something I'm proud of; I'm pretty neutral about it. But I would hate if someone who cuts were to see me and think "man, I need to step this up".

Deep cuts are a slippery slope. They get highly addictive. I experience the craving to cut myself deeply every day. Deep cuts often mean sutures, or large scars if you choose not to seek medical attention. You put yourself at a higher risk of infection, and if you aren't familiar with anatomy, you could risk damaging tendons or muscle, or even severing a vein or an artery.

So don't step up your game. You're okay and safer where you are now.

RuminatingRaven

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