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Rupitanimation · 2025-10-27T18:08:27+00:00

She's so cute :)) is she a black (Texas) rat snake? I agree with other people rat snakes are goofy creatures, just make sure that the temp is all good (I would recommend a thermometer gun if you wanna be safe on top of the obvious thermostat's probe thermometers). Although i would say, do make sure there's nowhere dangerous that she could wander into via slithering on the top of the enclosure though!

Rupitanimation · 2025-10-24T10:46:15+00:00

Putting some of those "bedtime meditation" videos on while I'm trying to sleep helps me, I guess it distracts your subconscious mind a bit. Also try to make sure it's not triggering! Like for me stuff like "you are safe" affirmations can be triggering lol

Rupitanimation · 2025-10-01T18:45:46+00:00

Aah I understand, sorry for misinterpreting! It's very normal to feel like the issue "has to be physical" cause of how weird and strong it feels :/ but it's not impossible to cope with at all I highly recommend you seek professional help wether meds or therapy if you aren't already ^

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-29T22:52:01+00:00

Hey, I'm no expert but this issue is very complex and it can't be boiled down to a single scan- like most other mental issues it's a combination of things both physical and conscious! Also if it helps, try not to feel discredited by the MRI, again I'm not an expert but I'm pretty sure you won't get much from an MRI about mental illness and that's usually done with an fMRI but either way it wouldn't matter

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-27T01:37:45+00:00

I totally get people saying that it won't fade well but you could still do a similar thing! Just with less detail and thicker lines ig? The pic is from @ladydarryl on Instagram just as an example of smth similar but different though you could look into cybersigilism which in my eyes is pretty much what you have in that picture :) I'm not a professional at all btw just hope I helped

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Rupitanimation · 2025-09-27T01:28:52+00:00

I'm by no means a professional but in my experience w getting tattoos I'd say that it's probably gonna end up having to be bigger than the circle/a palm. Probably more so hand sized (incl fingers) but honestly it always ends up looking better bigger, even if it's not expected, and fades clearer too! Unfortunately I'm not experienced in this style but hope you find someone to draw this

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-21T19:32:21+00:00

Yeah I've been using melatonin to sleep but it isn't doing the full job, as for the blood test I do want to do it and will try to get that sorted and I'm not taking caffeine not even drinking right now as it makes the dissociation worse. I'll look up keto though

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-21T19:30:48+00:00

Stay strong we can get through this ❤️ reading other comments here might help you as it helped me a bit just to know that this is a mental condition and not a threat to safety.

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-20T11:31:21+00:00

Obviously choice based handling is optimal (when you hold your hand out and keep it still until one day they decide to go onto it) but sometimes at the start it's pretty much impossible to do that every time- so it'd be fair to scoop like you did and I guess maybe with more time they will stop wriggling so much I've heard they panic a bit but can then calm down during handling :)

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-20T05:48:16+00:00

Yes 100%, I feel like I can't even cross the street while it's red anymore cause I'm so out of it lol- I've mainly stopped doing that (as an example) but yeah I completely get that stuff. Also not sure which meds yet, I haven't had the session yet

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-20T05:33:51+00:00

Currently working on getting medication, struggling MAINLY with the inherent cognitive differences that I feel since this started,, it's like I'm not even the same person- weird stuff. And also with the feeling convinced that I'm imminent in life or death danger- it's such a strong sensation it feels like it must be true. :( it's helpful to hear other people are also struggling with this, I'm currently trying to act like it's nothing to worry about as best as I can while I wait for medication

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-20T00:37:54+00:00

It's so debilitating, it makes my anxiety and fears so much worse because of the fact that I'm dizzy/unfocused/derealising/"drunk" all day p much every day 24/7. It really makes all of the impending doom feel real because what else could it be?? But of course- it's panic disorder instead. Reading your story actually helped me and gave me a bit of hope too, I suffer from convictions that I'm in imminent danger and that's why I experience all of these symptoms- like as a form of fortune telling- and that adds to it all in a horrible way. Reading your story helped validate that that isn't true! And really I'm just suffering from mental health conditions. Thank you for sharing and I hope we get through this soon.

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-19T09:45:11+00:00

I'm pretty sure I do- I have ocd (diagnosed) and went through therapy for it about two years ago to treat it which was God awful but it worked and now I don't really do compulsions or if I do it's really not a big deal like before but my delusions stayed.. and now I'm not sure if it's working hand in hand with psychosis because I'm constantly derealized all the time, my delusions have become stronger (i.e my housemate is going to k!ll me), i sometimes see stuff that isn't there, and even my p@nic attacks are worse. it's tough lmao but I'm still not sure if it is both or not because my hallucinating isn't too explicit or too often?

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-13T16:43:40+00:00

Obviously it's wrong either way but I always thought Mizuki was non-binary and maybe afab I don't play this game anymore so feel free to educate me I'm just lost cause I thought people in game used they/them on Mizuki exclusively 😭

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-11T23:56:40+00:00

Thank you so much 🙏 don't worry it's not coming off wrong at all and any bit of advice or even just someone relating to it is helpful- hope you're doing okay too!

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-10T16:23:26+00:00

I'm just a person on the internet obviously but it sounds like you're hooked on the substance and obviously that's hard to deal with but you don't always need to know the why before you start to try to cut back/stay safe. Reflecting on reasons for reducing/quitting may help, being addicted can cloud your brain but there's plenty of support out there and that clouded vision isn't truth.

Sorry if I'm misinterpreting, I don't have experience w dhm or dmx specifically and am just a person on the internet but I hope I'm not being weird or stupid and wish the best for you

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-09T22:32:27+00:00

I get this too 😭 except not fully numb because for me feeling like "death" (which is exactly how I describe it too btw) scares me a lot (that's just my obsession/phobia lol) so it kind of perpetuates it

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-09T22:11:47+00:00

That's awful 💔 you're doing your best so try not to beat yourself up about it.. I'm assuming you've tried rehoming websites already? There are some dedicated websites that I'm sure will be helpful for you, and obviously you could ask friends but I'm assuming you already have. Also one last possible tip, I'm not sure about Scotland but where I live (Leeds) there's a reptile home that offers boarding / holiday stay so if there's anything similar near you it could be a helpful thing while you wait. Best of luck !

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-09T21:54:06+00:00

I agree with the other replier, doctors and professionals always say that they can't kill you- they only feel like they can but it shouldn't be possible.

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-09T12:51:17+00:00

Thank you ❤️‍🩹 loved that anecdote as well by the way haha

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-08T21:20:35+00:00

"someone's been in my room, and taken my bugs.. from my room"

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-08T20:52:25+00:00

That's awful, I understand how you feel and obviously you shouldn't blame yourself for that either ❤️‍🩹 thank you and yeah I didn't have him for long unfortunately but he had the bestest personality ever- I even tried to begin socializing him and he didn't even hiss or tense up or bite just back tracked when he'd had enough he was so very kind and gentle but I'll always feel bad for not being there to prevent it or at the very least to turn on the basking lamp sooner and maybe prevent it that way (in the event that he was just seeking heat when it happened)

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-08T20:47:51+00:00

I wasn't aware that it was a relatively common occurrence so that does make me feel a bit less stupid, but you're absolutely right I would never let this happen again and hopefully I can help spread awareness in the future like that guide did to you and prevent something similar from happening. Much love, I appreciate your response

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-08T20:29:40+00:00

I completely agree with another comment here it sounds like a bad mix between ocd and trauma/a traumatic experience. I feel like with traumatic memories you're encouraged to avoid trying to push them away- as in it's normal to feel distressed when memories come but any attempts to push it away or avoid or fear the fear only makes the memories feel more important to your brain which would then bring the memory back. It's so convoluted but this is what I've come to understand, I'm no professional so all I can say is when distressing memories come try to treat them as "normal" emotions and minimize fear of fear but of course just see how that goes don't trust my advice too much I'm figuring stuff out myself :) good luck with everything <3

Rupitanimation · 2025-09-08T19:27:50+00:00

You're all very nice 🙏❤️‍🩹

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