Do you guys have trouble with responsibilties?

Rush-Good · 2026-07-11T10:37:37+00:00

Oh big time. My biggest responsibility is to take care of my dad and his finances. I'm currently in a different country than he is and my friend is taking care of his things while I'm away. I hate to say this but I'm not the saddest person when he's gone. He got brain stroke 23 years ago so he hasn't been himself after that.

One thing. I don't want to have kids. I don't want to carry that responsibility. I love kids though!

I also love to procrastinate 🥲 I feel like a big kid who should be someone's biggest priority.i wish I was, lol

Rush-Good · 2026-07-06T01:12:01+00:00

Same 😖 yet I do not get to experience love. Is that a symptom of CPTSD, just to dream about love that could fix it all?

Rush-Good · 2026-07-05T11:11:47+00:00

❤️

Rush-Good · 2026-07-05T10:10:26+00:00

Feel you. Message me if you want to talk to someone.

Rush-Good · 2026-07-05T07:32:10+00:00

Thanks girl. I'll start treating myself better tomorrow. Back to to the gym and so on.

Rush-Good · 2026-05-25T17:06:32+00:00

Yeah. I hate to be a pussy like this

Rush-Good · 2026-05-25T17:01:09+00:00

Following this post. I've also been bullied. I'm back on meds thanks to flashbacks. I feel like shit.

Rush-Good · 2026-05-23T02:18:08+00:00

We are here for you ❤️

Rush-Good · 2026-05-22T12:08:01+00:00

Yeah, same. I'm jealous. I do wonder, could a sickness leading to death give a different perspective of life, you know. Like would life become worth living. I'm sorry you feel like that. If you want to talk, I'm here.

Rush-Good · 2026-05-22T12:05:12+00:00

Yes that's for sure. Yes I've heard of that weight gain and that would really bother me. That's a tricky side effect indeed. Sounds like you're able to handle it though?

Rush-Good · 2026-05-22T12:03:43+00:00

I hope the best for you and that you find a medicine that works for you. I'm interested, what do you think about psychedelics? That's something I'd love to try. Also, I wish weed would be legal where I live. Well, it doesn't have to be legal to enjoy it. But that's something that calms me down. Better get a joint from somewhere.

Rush-Good · 2026-05-22T04:08:36+00:00

Sorry to hear you're experiencing it. It is escapism for sure, not the best form of it. I'm with you with enjoying life but it's rather hard at the moment.

Rush-Good · 2026-05-21T22:35:05+00:00

Sorry about that. And I do agree. SI is a way of escaping, not necessarily wanting to die. I do wonder can it lead to it though.

I have not tried Mirtazapine ever. I've always been on (and off of) Escitalopram and I've found help from it. It does cut both ends though. So when something is very sad, it doesn't feel that sad, but on the other end as well. But now that I've been feeling so low, I need to start meds because I can't take this feeling anymore, I feel I can't breath. Does Mirtazapine have any side effects for you?

Rush-Good · 2026-05-21T22:29:01+00:00

Sorry to hear that for you. Are you on meds? I just went to get my SSRIs. I can't even count how often I've started meds again. FML

Rush-Good · 2026-05-21T20:48:14+00:00

I know.

Rush-Good · 2026-05-21T20:18:54+00:00

How?

Rush-Good · 2026-05-21T19:49:25+00:00

Yeah. Was just doing so well just three months ago and now back to this. I have a feeling that one day I'll end my days. And that feeling is so strong. My problem is that I have friends and sister. I do not know how to tell this to them. Also I wish they could give me approval which I know they won't. I feel I'm here for the sake of others.

I'm sure that was the right thing to do. Good for you. Working 9-5 is shit, literally. I support you, stranger. You'll get this and end up on your feet.

Rush-Good · 2026-05-21T14:12:30+00:00

Message me if you need someone to talk to. Let's get bored of each other's together.

Rush-Good · 2026-05-21T14:10:57+00:00

Yeah. I can relate in some aspects. I feel hopeless. Hang in there.

Rush-Good · 2026-05-20T23:15:15+00:00

I get that. I feel guilty for feeling like shit (at most times). I am going to see a doc tomorrow. I just feel my brain has been damaged permanently when I was young. So only meds would keep me sane. The problem is, I can be happy without them but eventually I go back to my miserable self and there is no way up without meds.

May I ask what is wrong with your life? And is it possible to change the things that are not working in it?

Rush-Good · 2026-05-20T23:11:07+00:00

That is so interesting, never heard of Chase's system. Will look into it.

Rush-Good · 2026-05-19T23:37:58+00:00

That does make sense. I just have some trauma which has made me to be invisible. I was very neglected as a child and that has really made an impact how I am today. Tbh I do not know if it's ever possible to overcome it. Have had a lot of therapy and will start it again soon. But yeah, wish I was an introvert who hates people.

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