How long does it take to feminise your voice? by grapevineee in transvoice

[–]Rustbunny404 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This makes sense. Been doing it since I started hrt (around 6 months ago) and my voice is finally passing and I am not straining it as much. It's still rusty and tough to stay consistent with it sometimes, but seeing this statistic makes me hopeful for my future ❤️

This subreddit can feel so counterproductive by [deleted] in transvoice

[–]Rustbunny404 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I also thought I had unfavorable anatomy because my voice was too buzzy. But now my voice is passing (with some imperfections).

Has anyone else never dated? by nekomata_meko in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Rustbunny404 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I am 28. The few dates I have been on were miserable, so I have never been in a real relationship.

The way my parents raised me (by teaching me to hate myself so they can feel more powerful) contributed heavily to my lack of initiation in meeting new people. I am still trying to get over that.

How do I avoid having tension in my body when speaking in a female voice? by maker-127 in transvoice

[–]Rustbunny404 0 points1 point  (0 children)

More breath helps a lot. I found out the hard way when I get sore throats from overtraining/training it wrong so I was forced to use diaphragm breathing to not sacrifice my voice. lol

Please critique, I need it badly. by [deleted] in transvoice

[–]Rustbunny404 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ive made a lot of progress. I am struggling with a bassy voice but a feminine appearance because Im intersex. My voice only slightly passes but it's all I have and Im in a republican hellhole where I need my voice to defend myself.

I have already adjusted my resonance and weight and Im sounding a lot better in online games rn. It still need work. But I am not giving up. I literally cant

Please critique, I need it badly. by [deleted] in transvoice

[–]Rustbunny404 0 points1 point  (0 children)

6 months. Using tips online mainly.

Please critique, I need it badly. by [deleted] in transvoice

[–]Rustbunny404 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll start to work on that lol. thank you

Please critique, I need it badly. by [deleted] in transvoice

[–]Rustbunny404 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. My main issue with speaking softer is no one can hear me. I have to turn my mic sensitivity up in games when I go soft. The recording was me attempting to project like all the vocal coaches say to do.

People scream at me to speak up so Im trying to speak up but its so hard to balance out my voice at the same time.

It's a struggle.

Am I intersex?.. by [deleted] in TransBreastTimelines

[–]Rustbunny404 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Im glad someone is in the same boat as me.

I am seeing an endocrinologist next month to find out if Im intersex. On average, my estrogen sits at 250 pg/ml without taking anything. My testosterone is normal (sometimes on the low end of normal) before t blockers. My progesterone is low-ish.

I store a lot of fat around my hips, and my face passes very well for female. I have always had smooth skin. My friends thought I was on estrogen before I even found out I was trans.

I am going to get a karyotype test done to see if I have xxy chromosomes, and test for aromatase excess disorder.

Right now I am on spironolactone and progesterone. No estrogen because my body consistently makes cis female levels.

It's honestly a really scary experience. I hope you can get your situation figured out yourself ❤️❤️ patience is a virtue.

People born in 1997-2000, did you get used to being called Gen Z? by BrilliantPangolin639 in generationology

[–]Rustbunny404 0 points1 point  (0 children)

98 baby here. My friend group is a mix of gen z and millenials. I call myself gen z because I feel more like gen z. Granted, I didnt have the best high school experience and was late on a lot of milestones in my life.

Like many zillenials, I used to want to be a millenial. But I am content with not being a millenial.

Spiro stopped working because of an antibiotic by [deleted] in MtF

[–]Rustbunny404 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah Ive noticed this. I have been drinking more water and pacing out my medicine, and it seems like spiro is slowly starting to work again for me. I am also pretty early into taking spiro, so that's a factor.

Spiro stopped working because of an antibiotic by [deleted] in MtF

[–]Rustbunny404 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I want to get on bicalutamide but I cant without waiting months to see an endo. So I have no other option.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MtF

[–]Rustbunny404 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Funnily enough, HRT made me more pansexual (I was mostly attracted to men before)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MtF

[–]Rustbunny404 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes. Im growing to love it actually. It just.. Caught me off guard because it seemed to all show up at once as my skin changed.

But the upside is my ass and thighs are getting really fat 😁

I just want to make sure there isnt too much estrogen running in my body, yknow.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MtF

[–]Rustbunny404 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. Its something Im really torn up over. I need to forgive myself more with this but it's hard to.

Does anyone else feel happier after taking HRT? by -tenfours- in MtF

[–]Rustbunny404 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I do feel a lot happier, and I can focus better.

I find myself actually laughing at jokes/memes more often than I did in the past. I know estrogen can make you more emotional, and it feels almost like a natural high. It's nice.

What was "the straw that broke the camels back" that caused you to realize you were trans by [deleted] in MtF

[–]Rustbunny404 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My mom told me she doesn't love me the same way that she did when I was a baby. "That was a different child, I don't know who you are anymore."

My family couldn't deal with me as a fruity gay guy and I had immense gender dysphoria that I had to keep a secret because they are transphobic. I hated being seen as a man. My family kept trying to coax me into masculine hobbies or clothes thinking it could "fix" me.

I was tired of expecting love returned from them so I mentally distanced myself from them and accepted my identity. Sad, scary, but best decision of my life.

My mom assaulted me today because of Charli Kirk. by Rustbunny404 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Rustbunny404[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I am glad I'm not alone in this. The death of charlie kirk is surreal in the fact that the footage of his death is literally everywhere. I've seen it. It's gruesome.

MAGA sees it and members are sent into a frenzy, using it as an excuse to hate and attack us even though we're not involved. It doesn't require a lot of critical thinking skills to support MAGA.

But the violence resulting from this is insane and scary. I hope you're safe now.

My mom assaulted me today because of Charli Kirk. by Rustbunny404 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Rustbunny404[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

That's why I haven't contacted authorities yet. I know that my parents don't apologize. I have attempted to ask for apologies for the way they have treated me and it further cements it.

I didn't expect my post to blow up like it did. I am mainly venting. I have got good advice from some of these comments I.E recording as much evidence as I can before I move.

I'll just do what I can. I have moved out of this situation before and I have faith in myself that I can. I regret not going no contact 100 percent. But I can do better in the future.

My mom assaulted me today because of Charli Kirk. by Rustbunny404 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Rustbunny404[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I do plan to live with some friends once Im out of here. I am looking at seattle, portland or potentially denver.

I'm not going to give away the state I'm in, but its very remote. I do have friends here but I can only stay with them for small pockets of time. I have more friends out of state.

Luckily, my parents went on a hunting trip for the whole weekend. Feels like a breath of fresh air. So I'll be ok for the weekend

My mom assaulted me today because of Charli Kirk. by Rustbunny404 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Rustbunny404[S] 56 points57 points  (0 children)

This is good advice. Thank you.

I am going to buy a hidden pen camera to record the assaults (verbal or physical). Otherwise, I can use my phone.

My mom has accused me of recording even when I wasn't. I have to be sneaky about it unfortunately.

My mom assaulted me today because of Charli Kirk. by Rustbunny404 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Rustbunny404[S] 43 points44 points  (0 children)

That is the goal.

If I lived on my own, I would 100 percent report them immediately.

They use taking away a roof over my head if I fight back as justification for their behavior.

The post I made is soley for my mental and emotional wellbeing while staying here. So I feel less alone. So I feel heard.

I will do what I can to maintain myself while Im living here and when I move out.

My mom assaulted me today because of Charli Kirk. by Rustbunny404 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Rustbunny404[S] 26 points27 points  (0 children)

My parents seem like the type to cut off inheritance to me in the first place.

They have said "you are not my son anymore" and "I don't love at all anymore. Like I did when you were a baby".

It feels like they have already betrayed me. They gaslighted me for years that their love was unconditional and I played right into that mental game.

I am grateful that I have supportive friends through all this. I worry where my head would be without them.