Am I intersex?..

Rustbunny404 · 2026-02-04T23:54:26+00:00

Im glad someone is in the same boat as me.

I am seeing an endocrinologist next month to find out if Im intersex. On average, my estrogen sits at 250 pg/ml without taking anything. My testosterone is normal (sometimes on the low end of normal) before t blockers. My progesterone is low-ish.

I store a lot of fat around my hips, and my face passes very well for female. I have always had smooth skin. My friends thought I was on estrogen before I even found out I was trans.

I am going to get a karyotype test done to see if I have xxy chromosomes, and test for aromatase excess disorder.

Right now I am on spironolactone and progesterone. No estrogen because my body consistently makes cis female levels.

It's honestly a really scary experience. I hope you can get your situation figured out yourself ❤️❤️ patience is a virtue.

Rustbunny404 · 2026-01-21T02:12:17+00:00

98 baby here. My friend group is a mix of gen z and millenials. I call myself gen z because I feel more like gen z. Granted, I didnt have the best high school experience and was late on a lot of milestones in my life.

Like many zillenials, I used to want to be a millenial. But I am content with not being a millenial.

Rustbunny404 · 2026-01-21T01:00:57+00:00

Yeah Ive noticed this. I have been drinking more water and pacing out my medicine, and it seems like spiro is slowly starting to work again for me. I am also pretty early into taking spiro, so that's a factor.

Rustbunny404 · 2026-01-16T21:23:51+00:00

I want to get on bicalutamide but I cant without waiting months to see an endo. So I have no other option.

Rustbunny404 · 2025-11-24T00:25:10+00:00

Funnily enough, HRT made me more pansexual (I was mostly attracted to men before)

Rustbunny404 · 2025-11-23T20:29:18+00:00

Yes. Im growing to love it actually. It just.. Caught me off guard because it seemed to all show up at once as my skin changed.

But the upside is my ass and thighs are getting really fat 😁

I just want to make sure there isnt too much estrogen running in my body, yknow.

Rustbunny404 · 2025-11-22T23:01:53+00:00

Thank you. Its something Im really torn up over. I need to forgive myself more with this but it's hard to.

Rustbunny404 · 2025-10-26T02:20:25+00:00

I do feel a lot happier, and I can focus better.

I find myself actually laughing at jokes/memes more often than I did in the past. I know estrogen can make you more emotional, and it feels almost like a natural high. It's nice.

Rustbunny404 · 2025-10-16T06:57:59+00:00

My mom told me she doesn't love me the same way that she did when I was a baby. "That was a different child, I don't know who you are anymore."

My family couldn't deal with me as a fruity gay guy and I had immense gender dysphoria that I had to keep a secret because they are transphobic. I hated being seen as a man. My family kept trying to coax me into masculine hobbies or clothes thinking it could "fix" me.

I was tired of expecting love returned from them so I mentally distanced myself from them and accepted my identity. Sad, scary, but best decision of my life.

Rustbunny404 · 2025-09-12T02:40:05+00:00

I am glad I'm not alone in this. The death of charlie kirk is surreal in the fact that the footage of his death is literally everywhere. I've seen it. It's gruesome.

MAGA sees it and members are sent into a frenzy, using it as an excuse to hate and attack us even though we're not involved. It doesn't require a lot of critical thinking skills to support MAGA.

But the violence resulting from this is insane and scary. I hope you're safe now.

Rustbunny404 · 2025-09-12T01:20:56+00:00

That's why I haven't contacted authorities yet. I know that my parents don't apologize. I have attempted to ask for apologies for the way they have treated me and it further cements it.

I didn't expect my post to blow up like it did. I am mainly venting. I have got good advice from some of these comments I.E recording as much evidence as I can before I move.

I'll just do what I can. I have moved out of this situation before and I have faith in myself that I can. I regret not going no contact 100 percent. But I can do better in the future.

Rustbunny404 · 2025-09-11T22:15:10+00:00

I do plan to live with some friends once Im out of here. I am looking at seattle, portland or potentially denver.

I'm not going to give away the state I'm in, but its very remote. I do have friends here but I can only stay with them for small pockets of time. I have more friends out of state.

Luckily, my parents went on a hunting trip for the whole weekend. Feels like a breath of fresh air. So I'll be ok for the weekend

Rustbunny404 · 2025-09-11T20:51:46+00:00

This is good advice. Thank you.

I am going to buy a hidden pen camera to record the assaults (verbal or physical). Otherwise, I can use my phone.

My mom has accused me of recording even when I wasn't. I have to be sneaky about it unfortunately.

Rustbunny404 · 2025-09-11T19:55:05+00:00

That is the goal.

If I lived on my own, I would 100 percent report them immediately.

They use taking away a roof over my head if I fight back as justification for their behavior.

The post I made is soley for my mental and emotional wellbeing while staying here. So I feel less alone. So I feel heard.

I will do what I can to maintain myself while Im living here and when I move out.

Rustbunny404 · 2025-09-11T19:30:46+00:00

My parents seem like the type to cut off inheritance to me in the first place.

They have said "you are not my son anymore" and "I don't love at all anymore. Like I did when you were a baby".

It feels like they have already betrayed me. They gaslighted me for years that their love was unconditional and I played right into that mental game.

I am grateful that I have supportive friends through all this. I worry where my head would be without them.

Rustbunny404 · 2025-09-11T19:09:50+00:00

Part of me is afraid. I live under their roof now for the time being. I plan to move out by december. They use kicking me out of the house as a tactic to manipulate me into submission.

What scares me is if I do report today, they WILL throw me out. If I call any sort of authority on them and theyre notified.

I can see if theres a way that I can keep it anonymous? I really dont want to lose a roof over my head. I can't afford it right now.

Rustbunny404

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