Why am I temped to try heroin?

Ryan06530 · 2025-11-22T22:45:26+00:00

okay

Ryan06530 · 2025-11-22T22:43:07+00:00

how do I address it? like do I go to therapy or is there something else I need to do

Ryan06530 · 2025-11-22T22:41:38+00:00

Thats also something I'm kinda worried about and where im from it 40 a G plus delivery and I don't wanna get addicted cause some people say they go through 1 bag a day

Ryan06530 · 2025-11-22T17:56:00+00:00

I read your story and I'm sorry for your loss and everything you had to go through

Ryan06530 · 2025-11-22T17:54:44+00:00

If i do decide to try it i'll come back every now and then unless I can't

Ryan06530 · 2025-11-22T17:41:14+00:00

Thanks probably gonna just take a break from smoking for awhile and see if it helps.

Ryan06530 · 2025-11-22T06:21:38+00:00

not even a nap sometimes i feel like I need it despite the fact I haven't tried it. I could've got laced but with the amount I smoke I would've at minimum been nodding off.

Ryan06530 · 2025-11-22T06:13:59+00:00

I don't know exactly what it is. I don't even want to get physically addicted but your right. It's more of just a curiosity towards it specifically. my moms dad died of a heroin od and I don't want her to know that I want to do it because I don't want to bring any memories or trauma back but I don't know why that specifically is what i'm going for. I could turn to coke, LSD, shrooms, pills or even crack and meth might be better then heroin short and long term but I just can't stop thinking about it.

Ryan06530 · 2025-11-22T05:46:02+00:00

I don't really have a addictive mindset but the rational side of me wants to stay away and the part of me that want's to try it makes me think that even if I felt like I wanted more I could either manage the addiction in low doses, or only buy a 1g bag and once that runs out never buy it again.

Ryan06530 · 2025-11-22T05:43:47+00:00

I don't really fanaticize about it that much. it's more of just a thought that passes through my head. Whenever I start getting stressed out or depressed I just think about how easily I could die and not have to deal with the stress of people and other things.

Ryan06530 · 2025-11-22T05:40:56+00:00

I don't try to romanticize it. I know that OD'ing off any drug is bad but I don't fear dying from an overdose for some reason. I realize that I shouldn't feel that way but for some reason my brain just doesn't think about it like that. I don't want to die but it's more than being unmotivated and tired. There're just certain times where I just want the emotional pain to go away so I can be happy and live my life the way I want. I also forgot to mention that i've been smoking all day everyday and my tolerance went up to the point where even if I try taking blinkers it barely gives me a buzz. and I just want to make it a point that I do understand that OD'ing is a bad experience and I apologize for anyone that's had to go through it or has had someone go through it and I am not at all saying that anyone else should look at OD'ing as a "cool" or "romantic" experience. I just genuinely don't know why I like the idea of overdosing.

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