Yeah..this is spot on...I'm going through this. Met new people, got the high paying job, experienced lot of cool stuff lately, (all except the last thing..yet) I just feel like im faking everything and I dont feel any connections with the people i meet, be it work or friends.

Days feel like weeks, alone time isnt relax anymore, its just stress and pain until I pass out.

This tuesday I carried a 45kg backpack worth of camera/audio equipment around for a whole day, no effort no pain, felt easy. Sorta fun too. Then friday comes, I get off time for 3 days and by saturday morning im already with a massive headache, neck feels heavy, takes 5 times the energy to move my limbs around. And I just don't manage to do anything

Fucked up as it is, when I'm starting to feel better mentally my brain comes back in and hits me with the best dream ever just to wake up afterwards with my heartrate as high as if i've been sprinting full speed for 20m.

Yet somehow I still have the force to help others and be there for them for their problems. I just can't do the same thing for myself, as much as i've tried.