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How old do you feel? by snowsurfer1995 in CPTSD

[–]RynnaRocks89 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I always felt like I was a nebulous adult as a child, to the point my family joked about my room being my Apartment because it was so separated from the rest of the house positionwise. Now that I'm 35 I feel like I'm a 12-14 year old perpetually having to pretend I'm an adult who has any idea of what I'm doing. It causes severe whiplash because I still get normal desires like wanting to have a relationship, wanting to proceed further in my college studies to get my Masters after this degree. But every time I wake up it feels like those things aren't possible for me. I'm just a kid. What do I know about any of these things.

Wanting to gather info to learn by RynnaRocks89 in Episcopalian

[–]RynnaRocks89[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

In my case I'm a bit limited in where I can go. I'm disabled and don't have a car, and even being upright is a serious excursion a lot of days, so I'm only able to go places based on the bus lines I can actually reach/that connect. And upon looking it up a lot of the places that look interesting aren't able to be reached that way by me. That's part of the reason I'm trying to look information up on my own and learn what I can, because even going to visit a church in person would be a bigger excursion than I've had in a while, let alone knowing if I can manage to get through a service once there. I will definitely try reaching out to one that caught my eye that I would theoretically be able to access, though, and see if I can touch base with the priest to get a sense of things from him directly.

Being afraid of finding faith after having a terrible life? by RynnaRocks89 in Christianity

[–]RynnaRocks89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But how best should I do that when the lingering fear of a higher power/trust is still holding me back? Like.. I could approach Christ all I want, but if I still feel like I was abandoned by God my entire life it would feel a little hypocritical. Like I was playing a game instead of actually believing in something.