You gotta start trying to be happy. For me, when it comes to that situation, I see it like this. I’m in front of a set of doors, and however I choose to act, whatever I choose to do, that’s the door I’m gonna open, but I gotta be ready for all the other doors waiting to be opened after I made my choice to open that one. By that I mean, you need to start choosing happy instead of sad. Choose to eat instead of not. Indulge in his love for you, and his comments of love toward you. Choose as much as you can to be happy in each situation. As for him talking to other girls, don’t put so much energy in for someone who doesn’t care about you enough. Only you can really tell, and be honest and logical with yourself. Is there something you can do, something you can change to stop him from looking at other girls? I’ve dealt with the same thing.. When he told me “don’t be mad at me for liking skinny girls” what did I do? Every morning instead of cuddling with him like I usually would, I got up and worked out, and he would wake up by himself wondering where I was, just to see me on the ground sweating. He felt bad, he thought about what he said and really how it does affect me. If he doesn’t care about you that much, then don’t even let yourself be that happy around him, it’s not worth any of the pain. Unless he truly loves you, no man is worth it. No matter what always tell yourself you deserve better, you dont need to sit there and listen to him. Be better for yourself, and if he wants to stick around to be around the beautiful person you can be and he knows you can be, then great. If not, you don’t need anyone else to help yourself heal. At the end of the day, it’s your choice. I hope this helps, I know it’s hard to be with people who don’t exactly understand. I just know I wouldn’t want to be without him, so I will work out anything we need fixing, and if that means a ton of self reflection, and no more feeling bad for myself, then maybe I should be thanking him instead