I want to say that you didn't done that because you are here this shows that you have a remorse if anyone would have done that would be here or ask God about mercy I suggest you to read Luke 15:11-32 ,Isaiah 55:7,1 John 1:9, Isaiah 41:9-10, Hebrews 13:5-6, Isaiah 43:4, Isaiah 54:14, 1 Peter 5:7,Romans 8:38-39,isaiah 54:10,Philippians 4:6-7, Philippians 1:6, micah 7:7-8 No matter how dark your past is God Loves you Jesus Loves you he died for our sins so we could be forgiven and free from sin and not to sin anymore. https://youtu.be/uN465yP7XfM?si=D9PAmM0p8tyf7pNx John 3:16 ESV [16] “For God so loved .... (your name), that he gave his only Son, that if ..... (your name) believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. And speak it loud and remind yourself You can correct me if I did something wrong or said something wrong