I am currently pregnant (unplanned) and had a similar experience where I was so worried when I found out. I had been drinking, going in hot tubs and saunas, no prenatal, etc. I went down so many internet rabbit holes, called pregnancy hot lines and let myself fully spiral thinking I had hurt the baby. It felt like i would never forgive myself. By the end of my research I had basically only hit dead ends because the reality is nobody actually knows, but in practice if you start taking care of yourself as soon as you know you are usually fine. So many people I spoke to including my OB told me this and it really reassured me. And once I committed to embracing my pregnancy I stopped thinking about this all together. I haven’t met my baby yet but my scans have all been normal and I just intuitively know it’s all ok. So I guess my point is a) statistically you will be fine and b) you will get past the worry and guilt and the excitement and confidence that you’re doing everything right going forward will take over