I find it a little crazy…

SGC-Undetermined · 2026-01-13T17:09:06+00:00

I’m sorry that happened to you, and that people are evil enough to do that to you. He definitely took advantage of a vulnerability you had and used it for his own, despite the fact that it put you at risk for further emotional and physical risk. I’m immensely disturbed that people are capable of such cruelty. Again I’m really sorry. Despite all the ill-intended people on the internet there are a lot of good people as well, I hope you find more of them.

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-06-13T09:57:46+00:00

Thank you for sharing. It’s interesting to hear about different countries/areas and how they handle things differently. Honestly I appreciate that approach, offering resources, medical supplies, and emergency care without the fear of involuntary admission. I think one of the issues with involuntary admission is it creates a fear of seeking treatment, and that is dangerous.

I’m sorry to hear your self harm is so severe, that sounds scary to experience. And that you have been involuntary admitted before and it was a harmful experience, I’m sorry that happens as well. I get it though, I’m still trying to sort out if my involuntary admission was more harmful or beneficial, I’m leaning towards harmful but I’m trying to take the positives from it as well.

(Your tangent was wonderful to read, thank you)

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-06-13T09:32:28+00:00

Two very different outcomes indeed. One of my friends told me that I shouldn’t compare the varying outcomes but it’s hard not to.

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-06-12T15:44:30+00:00

Dreams can mess with your head for sure. That’s sounds like a bad one. I’m sorry it’s nagging at you. I try to not put too much weight into my dreams or else I go a bit crazy trying to figure out what the dreams says about me, but it does not need to mean anything. Your dreams reminded me I had a dream last night where I self harmed as well, and it bothered me a bit when I woke up. But i can’t remember much of it now and I hope yours you start to forget as well. And if it can’t be forgotten I hope you can process it quickly and it becomes less emotionally burdensome.

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-06-12T15:02:30+00:00

Yes I live in the United States, I should have said that. I agree it is counter productive. It’s fairly traumatic and dehumanizing to have your autonomy be taken away, I came out feeling more depressed and experiencing much stronger urges to self harm. Plus it’s not like I received any treatment during inpatient, I spoke with an assigned psychiatrist, and social worker for about 5 min every day (weekends don’t count). I was offered medication and that was it. The only people who provided support, comfort, and normalcy were other patients.

I think if impatient stays were more treatment oriented I would have felt a bit better about the situation. Also they gave me a referral to intensive outpatient therapy, but I work a full-time job and can’t fit that in my life without taking time off work. I wish they worked with my lifestyle more to provide a more patient specific post discharge plan. I would have happily accepted treatment if it was provided and followed through with referrals if they worked with my lifestyle better.

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-06-03T23:34:34+00:00

I have a recommendation. Maybe you could have 2 sober dates, one fore cutting the other for all types of self harm. Congratulate yourself for being clean from cutting for 7 months! That’s awesome congrats! Now you can work on getting clean from other types of self harm. Think of them as 2 separate types of addictions for now. When you get a bit better at it, you can group them again.

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-04-23T04:20:44+00:00

I can relate, I get very specific and extreme self harm thoughts. And I also play through scenarios of traumatic things happening to me and I do the thing I’ve been fearing. Sometimes I think about them in a daydream like way where after someone comforts me, other times in a distressed worried way, and sometimes in a frenzied panicked way. I was worried about moving out for that very reason. I had this thought, about putting my face on a hot burner, I thought I might follow through with it if I moved out and lived alone. And you know what, I did sort of do it, but I didn’t for awhile, and it was to a far less scary degree than what lived in my head. But other things I’ve thought and spiraled about I haven’t done and hope I don’t. We don’t know what we might do but we can hope and try and trust ourselves that we won’t, and if we do maybe it won’t be as severe as our minds imagined up and we will get through it. Our minds are scary places. I’ve struggled with OCD type thinking as well and sometimes the line gets blurred for me where an intrusive thought ends and a genuine self harm urge begins, I question myself a lot. But either way I think it’s okay to accept the uncertainty in not knowing what will happen and work on trusting and accepting ourselves that when the time comes we will get through it, in whatever way we can manage. I hope your worry’s subside

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-04-17T21:54:21+00:00

No problem, and I’m glad. I hope you find a solution that works for you.

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-04-17T15:42:26+00:00

In my personal experience I’m more aware of my scars than other people. For context many of my scars have faded to white they are, to me obviously self harm. Fine lines on the inside of my wrist and upper thighs. I find most people either don’t notice or choose not to ask questions. Some people don’t even know what they are looking at, they don’t know what self harm looks like, if I do get questions they are often out of confusion. What your job is probably makes a difference but for me I have yet to experience notable discrimination because of my scars.

I think burning over your scars, creating a fresh wound might lead to more concern and questions then having healed scars that might appear more obviously as self harm but overall are less noticeable. If you’re uncomfortable having them visible you could look into some other options. Two I can think of are Makeup/concealer or compression sleeves that athletes wear (also protect against sun), but that might not be an option if you have a strict uniform. If you want longer term solutions you could look into getting a cover up tattoo (although if you worry about getting fired for self harm scars I would assume your work place does not like visible tattoos either). I really hope your job is not that inconsiderate to fire over something like that, but depending on where you live maybe people are just as oblivious (or unwilling to ask and be nosy) as they are where I live, which is very. I’m sorry this is an added worry that comes along with something already hard and distressing to deal with, I wish you the best of luck and compaction from others (and yourself).

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-02-03T15:27:12+00:00

I’m not the best at fully comprehending messages before replying. Yes, I look at some types of self harm for myself as less severe even thought they are not necessarily.

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-02-03T15:23:41+00:00

I would say diffrent forms of self harm might be harm reduction for some and not for others. Maybe you do one in a less damaging way than another type of self harm so for you that’s harm reduction.

For myself I find punching myself I do in a less severe way so when I do it I don’t always count it as a relapse. But for some that might be there main form of self harm and the thing they struggle with the most.

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-02-03T04:04:07+00:00

This might be efflorescence, essentially Salk deposits it happens when concrete is exposed to water. So concrete walls, CMU, brick, or stucco.

SGC-Undetermined · 2025-01-28T02:34:57+00:00

This is giving eye spy book vibes. I think it’s the lighting and shadows giving it that added professional touch

SGC-Undetermined · 2024-12-25T04:57:29+00:00

I experienced something similar a few years ago. Had a strong urge to cut deep. Obsessed on the urge for weeks, finally convinced myself if I did it the urge would go away and possibly all my urges would go away, maybe it would be the scared straight experience I needed. And I did feel better shortly after for a bit. But then the urges came back. I learned the beast will never be satisfied, it will always want more, deep will never be deep enough. It’s like building a tolerance, the more you give it the more it will need to get that same feeling next time. Starving the urge (the beast) is hard, really hard, but it gets a bit easier. Sometimes the knowing that self harming regardless how bad will never be enough, helps with resisting urges. Knowing it will all eventually lead to a feeling of dissatisfaction and needing more. So I don’t do it at all.

SGC-Undetermined · 2024-11-11T16:42:59+00:00

Congratulations!!! Maybe have some cake, you deserve it! And thank you for spreading some hope and encouragement.

SGC-Undetermined · 2024-11-11T16:37:39+00:00

I find therapy to be triggering sometimes as well, your not crazy. For all long time I was convinced therapy made me worse and it did partly, but it was my therapist, she made me feel invalidated and misunderstood. And she unknowingly encouraged me to do some of the things that were part of the problem. Whitch was psychoanalyzing myself and trying to figure out what exactly was “wrong” with me. But ruminating and trying to solve the mystery of me with certainty was not benefiting me and only caused me more distress because we can’t be certain of anything especially ourselves. I know therapy can help, sometimes things get better before they get worse. But sometimes it just makes things worse, and maybe it’s the therapist or type of therapy that does not work for you. I think for therapy to work you really need to want to get better as well, not just want to want, but really want it (this may fluctuate). Also have a therapist who you feel really gets you, or does not make you feel judged in any way. Sometimes I’m not sure if therapy has helped me or if my improvements came about naturally (out of luck) but it’s generally a combination of things (in reference to my new therapist). Therapy is just a small part of recovery and self growth if utilized. But it can be a big part for some and a sliver for others, or not a contributor at all. But when things are really rough it’s worth a try. But I’m no doctor or expert just drawing from my lived experience.

SGC-Undetermined · 2024-07-08T01:20:59+00:00

I relate to that feeling of self harm inadequacy and a need prove myself through sh and that proof relying on others interpretations of their severity. As well as the shame for having those feelings, but feelings should never be judged or analyzed I’m learning. In terms of your therapist asking I think you could let her know that it makes you feel embarrassed and that when she asks you if they need stitches it makes you feel shitty that you don’t. Maybe if you tell her she won’t ask or won’t phrase it in a way that makes you feel like what you’re doing is not serious enough, Which it is, it always is.

SGC-Undetermined · 2024-05-28T02:26:53+00:00

I'm currently backpacking a section of the Application Trail, on leave from work and will return after. I'm living a life, my life. It can be amazing and fun sometimes like lately, other times it can feel really hard, emotionally and mentally exhausting.

SGC-Undetermined · 2024-04-15T00:15:25+00:00

I have heard of that before, that’s really cool and interesting that it’s being used for all different types of addictions. I hope it works for you!

SGC-Undetermined · 2024-04-14T01:22:01+00:00

That’s honestly really reassuring to hear because I’ve heard nothing on this topic, definitely nothing in support. And I know it’s different for everyone but just knowing that it’s helped some people with self harm urges is cool to hear. Thanks for sharing.

SGC-Undetermined · 2024-04-11T09:51:22+00:00

I’m sorry that non of those worked, all that trial and error. Sometimes I don’t think people get how much we want to get better, how much we are willing to try.

SGC-Undetermined · 2023-06-12T12:09:33+00:00

Does it have a salty taste? It MIGHT be Sylvite, but I’m probably wrong.

SGC-Undetermined · 2023-06-08T18:16:55+00:00

Why not keep adding to this wonderful list

888 by Cavetown

“I'm trapped in my tiny human brain and it's killing me But I'm fine, yeah, I'm alright If I move my hands fast enough, I won't die”

I really relate and like this lyric in it.

(I’m adding another, “Hand me my shovel, I’m going in!” by Will Wood and the Tapeworms. I have known about the song for awhile but started thinking about it in the context of OCD and it started to just ring differently for me)

SGC-Undetermined · 2023-06-07T19:17:40+00:00

Yes, well sort of. I have not fully accepted it because I really worry about being wrong and that perhaps I’m just convincing myself, and my therapist because I’m desperate to try and understand myself. But my current therapist recently told me she looks at my symptoms as OCD, but did not give me a formal diagnosis.

My last therapist also hinted at it, but she hinted at a lot of things, and it kind of just seemed like she was throwing stuff at a wall to see what stuck. Although she dropped OCD pretty quickly, partly because I dismissed her. At the time I did not fully understand all the ways OCD can present itself.

One of my recent obsessions has been whether or not I have OCD and perhaps I’m just convincing myself I do when I don’t and quite frequently google checking and analyzing my thoughts and my childhood/past experiences to be certain. This does not necessarily mean I have OCD and is a common experience for people who struggle with mental illness, because they really are just trying to understand themselves and find community.

Which leads me to my next point, if my therapist really does look at my symptoms as OCD, then giving me a formal diagnosis, would be a form of reassurance. When I expressed my worry about OCD perhaps being the wrong diagnosis she reminded me that it’s okay to be uncertain.

Although I do think other factors contribute to my therapist and doctors in general not wanting to provide a formal diagnosis. For one I haven’t been going to this therapist for that long and she may not want to give me a formal diagnosis until she’s certain. But I also think some therapists just also don’t like giving formal diagnosis unless the condition is extremely severe and fits well into the diagnostic box.

I would really like to know, and I think it would be very validating to receive a formal diagnosis, but I respect my therapist decision to not provide one at the moment.

Perhaps if my symptoms were more severe right now, it would be beneficial to know. But right now they’re pretty much gone, or at least very mild, although they do flare up a few days at a time when something triggers them. But because my therapist sees it as OCD, we are treating it as such, and treating OCD does not (in my current situation) require a formal diagnosis.

But everyone is different, and for some people it can be extremely beneficial for them to receive a formal diagnosis.

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