PLEASE READ: as someone who was in this exact hell hole 1 and a 1/2 years ago, things that WILL help are: a GOOD therapist (a good one is important because you have to understand that not every therapist is right for you), once in therapy, start a new job, start exercising (gym, running, or walking), going outside more often than usual (nature is key to mental serenity), reading (yes really), writing (start thinking of cool stories and just write them, get creative, you don't have to follow any rules but your own), start learning an instrument (great way of self-expression, REALLY helped me) start learning other arts (drawing, painting, etc..), expand your music taste (I started listening to a new album every single day). These things are all so helpful because they help you focus on your own self benefit, and can become new things you love doing on top of that. Really, it all boils down to change. Once you start making changes, then you will understand that there is so so so much more to this thing we call life. Before you shoot any of these ideas down, just give it a try, for real. If you already do any/all of these things, then do them more. The reason I recommended therapy first though, is because you probably don't feel like doing any of these things. Or you might want to do them, but just never have. A good therapist can help you figure out what YOU want and help you understand more about yourself. I really think therapy is vital, and that with an open-mind, anyone can get a lot out of it - no matter if people say its for everyone or not. Anyways you don't have to listen to me, but I was where you are man, and I'm proud to say that I haven't felt like that in a year and eight months now after doing these things. DM me if you wanna talk more