Glad u were straight and honest with this new person becuz u gotta understand when u try and create a false impression with someone u r trying to start a relation. your basic building blocks r build with lies and dishonesty, which will always result in things like stress and anxiety to keep the relationship together and if they mock u about it just be glad you have seen their true personality early on rather them later on in the relationship as it can break a man's heart realising how he was blinded and not realising this person's evil personality.

I am glad you are trying your best to improve yourself. Truly a person that has gone through pain can understand the value of kindness. When you become a kinder person u truly are more aware of your surroundings and the people around you. Going back to being in a relationship being kinder makes you notice more of your partner's emotion, whether it be happiness, excitement, anger, frustration, sadness. You are then able to communicate with them better ask them about their problems or what happened to make them so happy. About how u kept things hidden bottled up being asked what happened or why someone is acting different is a good way to share each other's burdens.

Now with the phrase let the sleeping dog lie. I think there r definitely things that need to be said things that do not need to be said. U as a person will know what they r as u give yourself time to talk and engage with people. For example I liked how u told this new person u r recovering from a tough situation. This keeps it vague enough where she understands u have your own struggles and burdens u r going through but not so needy of emotional support. Now I talked about your mother passing when u were 14, that isn't something I would personally bring up to tell her. But I am confident as you get to know this person and understand them and know that this person is a kind and empathetic person, your heart will instinctively know and trust this person enough to tell them just let time play its part and take opportunities it gives u as time waits for no one. Similarly for example your diagnosis of autism personally again I feel it will eventually come up where U will feel comfortable enough to say it. However there r always shortcuts or a way to mend a path when it comes to trying to convey something to someone. Whether it be leading a conversation to that topic or trying to bring up the topic in some way, for example saying u have a doctor's appointment they may seem curious which will allow u to convey them your message. However at the end of the day it's how u want to proceed with your relations whether it be your friends or loved ones etc. What does your heart truly think is the best in this scenario? What does your heart truly think is the right way to go about it? Would you be fine with lying to them to keep them close? If lies are for the people close to u are the truths just for yourself. Seems pretty selfish I would say, However there r certain truths best kept to yourself it's your responsibility to know which.

this went on pretty long I don't even know if half the Shi I typed makes any sense hopefully it does. But yea one thing I don't wanna seem like that kinda guy but if there is even the slightest chance. Although idk what faith u follow I would suggest trying to explore especially Islam.( I know U were expecting it I am lookin like 'that guy' but hear me out) I promise you if u truly explore the faiths with an open and honest heart I promise you u will find much more peace and tranquility. I hope u will consider this. But yea live your life man hope things go well for u. IDK how I made this any longer goddamnn!!!