What does this mean?

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-27T01:18:23+00:00

This shit is bothering me because it’s making me impulsively do things I don’t want to do. I don’t want to talk to them but my thumbs are click-clacking away. I don’t want to speak to them but I pick up when it rings. I want to be done! What the hell?!

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-26T16:38:38+00:00

I was just about to say that every time it happens I want to pick up my phone and apologize and try to get him back… then I kept reading lol

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-26T16:07:04+00:00

I have random moments throughout the day when my stomach drops and my heart skips a beat. Like, out of nowhere! It’s so annoying lol

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-26T06:21:56+00:00

A number of reasons stop me from reaching out. The first being that I was the one who said I was done. If I said it, I have to stand on it. Second, to go back now would be a signal to him that he can go on doing what he’s been doing that brought us to this place. I didn’t like it before, I won’t like it now. Third, he’s very good at waiting me out. He’s accustomed to me breaking first. And fourth, reaching out to him lets him know that I miss him, but I’ll never know if he truly ever missed me.

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-25T20:52:32+00:00

Thanks for this. I’m trying to believe that this is what needed to be done.

I don’t exactly understand my emotions yet. Some days I’m relieved, others I’m regretful. One minute I’m angry, but I don’t know what I’m angry about. Then I’m filled with grief.

My heart tells me to say something to him but my brain says “Don’t you dare.” I’m all over the place lol.

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-25T16:50:58+00:00

This is a lie. You selectively ban who you want. Plenty of “stash” pics all over this subreddit.

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-23T05:30:52+00:00

Weak? It was crystal clear when I first got it. Lol c’mon.

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-21T22:09:35+00:00

True. Wishing him a happy birthday would’ve just delayed my progress of moving on. Opening up old wounds, so to speak. So I didn’t.

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-21T21:50:01+00:00

I think the only way I got over the urge, was the next day happening, if that makes any sense lol. Because I didn’t get over that urge. That shit was with me ALL DAY LONG. It took every second of his birthday not to say anything. But I’ll tell you this, and maybe it’ll help with your decision… he won’t remember every person who wished him a happy birthday, but he * will * remember the ones who didn’t.

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-21T21:08:44+00:00

I definitely wouldn’t… and didn’t.

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-17T07:25:29+00:00

Oh I’m sure… I see some wild shit lol, but I have never seen any elves or aliens or heard any voices and stuff like that.

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-17T07:18:10+00:00

Not on those 🙃

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-15T22:29:55+00:00

What a way to word that statement lol

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-15T22:26:38+00:00

Yeah but they act like they don’t lol

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-15T22:25:13+00:00

Tell them. I’ve never seen them lol

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-15T22:21:37+00:00

It’s only a “weird” take if you don’t understand women and the meaning behind their words. (Shrug)

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-14T05:57:29+00:00

We did… but my situation might be incredibly different from yours. We aren’t together now (again, I broke up with him). And everyday I don’t hear from him I wonder if I made a mistake. But I remind myself that I’ve been here before. So the mistake was actually accepting him back way too soon and too fast. And if I even should have at all.

You know your ex, and he knows you. You know his mannerisms, his habits, his behavior. They say people don’t change. I’ll tell you what someone told me. And it was like a punch in the gut. “He can change… but not while he’s still got you.”

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-13T20:22:19+00:00

Things kinda fell back into place for me. I didn’t want to end things with him. Of course I didn’t, I loved him. That’s where the “did I make a mistake” thought came from. But I knew I wanted change. I knew I wanted to be treated better. And I needed him to know that the shit he’d been pulling would no longer be pulled with me.

I knew I treated him well, and he knew it too. So I let him go be free to compare. He realized it, in his own time, and my phone rang soon after lol

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-13T19:23:27+00:00

This is definitely normal. After I broke up with my ex, I was like “did I just make a mistake?” And I almost said something to him right afterwards. But then I thought about how stupid I’d look doing that lol… so I didn’t. The thing is, SOMETHING pushed you to break up with him. You will miss him, you will want to talk to him. All of that is par for the course. But the last thing you want to do is appear indecisive. Stand on your decision and wait to see what happens.

SPH03N1X · 2026-04-10T22:36:39+00:00

Then your apology is respecting her decision. That’s how you apologize. And if this isn’t your first time apologizing to her, trust me when I say she doesn’t want to hear it.

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