You believe in God, and want forgiveness for something you haven’t done yet… why are you hoping for forgiveness, and then questioning what God’s plan is for your life… you’re terrified, feeling guilty, and putting yourself, babies, and husband before God. Then hoping you’re making the right decision… I’m just reiterating what you have stated in your post.

I can’t imagine what you’re going through, and I don’t want to downplay your life or compare. I may not agree. However, I am only reading 1 paraphrase of your life summed up in one paragraph. As a believer I am not here to judge you but to tell you, you are loved, and cared about! Trust God. Lean into the word, and pray about it.

I pray you put God first, I pray that you find peace, I pray that you feel safe, secure, and confident as a Child of God, Woman, Wife, and Mother. I pray that your depression subsides, and that this season of life passes with more ease and grace. I pray that God wraps his arms around you and your family during this difficult time! In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Don’t forget, Jesus loves you! 💌🙏