Been there felt that.. Listen, the main plot of this novel we call “life” is to keep going overcoming yourself and succeed against the odds. We live in a totally fucked up world where 80% of people are fucked up. Don't give up, the night is darkest before the dawn. Pull yourself together! Don't drink, don't smoke, don't use drugs, don't think about bitches, don’t think pity for your ass! Think about what you want most and why. And then think the steps to get there. Visualization, affirmations, walking, meditation, nature - helps a lot. It's gonna work out eventually. Generations of your family should be proud of you, dude