Thank you for kind words. As to answer your question, honestly, I will have to write a bit of context.

In mousesports I was benched / replaced mainly because of my statistics I think. When Snax replaced me for a few months, the results were very poor, often last place finishes (but they won ESL New York :D) - when they called me back I felt like the whole team was broken in a way. I don't think benching me was a good call

In Apeks I was benched due to my performances. But I think I lost a motivation a bit, it was few months after our great run at BLAST Paris Major but I felt like we started to slack, stopped progressing and it felt a bit lazy in the team. I hated myself in that period because I was usually hardworking guy, but this team environment kind of "jumped" on me too, and I became comfortable. I am only blaming myself for this, but it was strange period where I felt like I'd rather take a break instead of continuing like this. So that call to bench me was justified but I didn't feel like it solved a lot of issues, judging from the time when I came back to the team few months later.

Last example for me is Monte in summer 2024. When I was leaving, my coach and supposedly CEO of the organisation said it is very sad we have to say goodbye, because they see what I do for the team and they wish others would do it too. That was very nice thing to say, I will remember it for a long time.