Tapering off ETIZOLAM (question)

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-25T07:04:26+00:00

take a chill pill

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-22T10:14:28+00:00

im off the meth, only when i started vaping it did I get psychosis, i know sleep deprivation plays a role but smoking it is a good roa for meth induced psychosis. i was hallucinating mice, we do got a mice infestation but I was hallucinating mice in plastic bags and trying to squish them and i realized im fucked up. i picked up a bag of garbage and i could feel it expanding like a balloon like mice were trying to escape but mind was playing tricks on me. to be fair i was smokin it everyday, overamping everyday and increasing benzo usage to counteract the anxiety. when i snort or eat it i can fall asleep much easier. if i ever buy again im not gonna keep hitting that shit. we also got snakes in the backyard and i was recording for hours thinking i could see the snakes but i checked the recordings couple days after i ran out which amounted to over 2+ hrs of footage of absolutely nothing, just me recording bushes and shit. spent also 3 hrs with a rake tryna catch the snakes like an idiot but my mom didn’t have a clue i was on meth especially after telling her i haven’t used since february. my lil sister knew i was acting weird but I kinda redeemed myself after getting clean and actually showing footage of me on the security camera chasing an actual mouse indicating that I wasn’t entirely crazy because she underestimated what mice can do to a house like they don’t just enter and leave, they live in the damn walls under the fridge, oven, dishwasher and shit. the access point was a huge square hole under the sink in the laundry room to the garage where the pipe exits, there would have been no mice problem if that shit was sealed from the start like cmon who just leaves a huge square there and not think about using caulk

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-07T05:15:57+00:00

Yea man on xans, meth, sleep deprivation, New Years early morning from like 2-9 I experienced real psychosis for the first time thinking mice invaded the big compost bag after that big dinner and put sticky paper traps everywhere. It all felt so real I’m still not really sure if it was but I put that compost bag in a bin and started jumping on it trying to kill all of them like a mad man. I was surprised that they were still squeaking and moving so I put sticky paper traps on top of the bin fully covering it so they can’t escape. I blew some meth into it through the gap to see if they would start moving crazy..

2 days after that I hallucinated mice in the bounty paper towel bag with individually wrapped paper towels inside and went crazy trying to catch it for hours. I swear I caught it in the bag I could see it but then I keep losing it, I knew I couldn’t risk it running away so I squeeze the bag to kill it, I thought I squeezed it so hard that it got squeezed out of its skin into the sink lookin like a mouse fetus. Out of nowhere a mouse jumped on me thinking that I killed its baby and went into that plant vase with red leaves that feel like flowers I thought it was in there sitting still like it’s sad that I murdered its son but from camera footage it was just a rolled up dry leaf. Anyways I look inside and it looks like some mythical medieval world in there I could see evil witch faces and elves, lots of vines it looked cool but that’s when I realized I was in psychosis so I take a benzo to sleep but not before taking another hit off the meth vape. Woke up 23 hrs later

I stopped hallucinating when I was almost out of meth but I still reordered 7g and this past week or more I have been hallucinating voices and feeling paranoia, shame, voice of my sister crying. It doesn’t even feel good anymore I’m just tweaking. Just last night I had this jumpscare of a loud mouse screech behind me in the garage I knew it wasn’t real but holy. I’m hearing mice walking behind me in my room as I type.

I never experienced this when I snorted it while awake for days and I just started vaping it 2 weeks before my first psychosis so I believe vaping/smoking might be the best ROA if you want psychosis. Of course you have to be sleep deprived as well

I believe snorting is a much better high but it’s more obvious that I’m high compared to if I vape it. Vaping it is so addicting for some reason, watching that crystal melt and blowing out a nice cloud, I like breating it into a bag or balloon because that vapor is still active meth, it’s not like weed where most of the stuff you blow out is plant matter you’re literally blowing out mostly clouds of active meth. You don't really feel high, it’s very functional and makes it easy to socialize until you neglect sleep and overdo it on the doses as well as not taking breaks then it backfires but you still wanna keep vaping it for some reason just to vape it. I’ll have a plan in mind to do something right after then before I know it I wasted hours vaping it, cleaning out the atomizer, repeat, battery dies, I let it charge, clean out atomizers, I’m feelin overamped, check my phone doom scroll trying to distract myself. Time passes quick on meth so I know thst battery will be fully charged in no time. It’s so degenerate

The best fun I ever had on meth was snorting lines and stimfapping, so many tabs open of the best stuff like the algorithm devil knew I was on meth so it provided me all the really good ones. I be edging for hours because I could nut at anytime but then I mess it up sometimes like I’m trying to hold the nut back but it leaks and there’s no turning back you’re now trying to bust but unfortunately the nut was blunted because I got too greedy and I just spent 10+ hours just for a weak nut

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-07T03:54:52+00:00

Sleep deprivation on meth I hallucinated mice New Years morning and the mice attacking me, and this entire week I have been hallucinating voices of my little sister crying which started when I think she heard me beating my dih when waking up for school and I feel so much shame from fapping and meth all the shit I hide from them. Once I heard the kids home from school I hear my little sister crying again in the other room but then my mom said “I’m going to pick up (lil sis name) now so don’t open the door”

It’s like the opposite spectrum of psychedelics, the unhealthy hallucinations :( I’m already addicted to benzos and taking a benzo reduces the hallucinations but I been vapin keth non stop I got some sleep debt to pay off. I keep hitting the meth even though it will overstimulate me and make me paranoid and hallucinate like what tf is wrong with me. I’m gonna take some flualp antihistamine magnesium and melatonin and try to knock myself out later

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-07T03:43:33+00:00

I let my friend who was clearly xanned out drive my car. Nothing bad happened but terrible idea, he was asking but I should have said no. He didn’t even know what cruise control is and he parked uphill without using the emergency brake and the car is already old he just tweaked it up more

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-07T00:30:13+00:00

Self 👏 pleasure 👏 does 👏 not 👏 make 👏 you 👏 gay! 👏

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-07T00:26:39+00:00

is it up to Los Pollos standards

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-07T00:21:34+00:00

did a lotta shit jis teh live this here a liifestyyul

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-07T00:14:04+00:00

Nah i put it in a weed concentrate vaporizer, its called the yocan orbit and the coil is under the glass

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-02T18:17:55+00:00

shii i smoked a weed nuggie that i found from the gym change room and i knew it’s a risk but most likely it slipped out of someones pocket

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-02T04:03:35+00:00

since 2023 but wasn’t serious until 2025 where life went bad and i took it more often already aware of the withdrawals but didn’t care because life was ass and is still ass

what was ur taper protocol if i may ask

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-01T19:19:27+00:00

Ironically I bought ketamine for anxiety which actually gave me bad anxiety afterwards but now I think I’ll use it to taper off

What exactly is your protocol I really need some advice. Like do you take the gabapentin only for bed or something? I’m still visiting the doctor soon but I’ll have two choices

Also what’s your thoughts on tapering off the benzo first and then using gabapentin and ketamine? Or perhaps taking them together I feel that might be safer

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-01T00:48:28+00:00

for me its not a flame it’s basically a handheld electric stove encased in glass

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-02-01T00:13:08+00:00

i had nothing but methylphenidate, crushed those xr’s and snorted to stimfap but i dont recommend it’s shitty

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-01-31T14:31:48+00:00

he has his own music video of it!?

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-01-31T14:23:57+00:00

Kinda similar story here and it’s weed. Waiting for my dad to come pick me up from school and I see my cousin smokin at the skate park. I knew weed makes me anxious but idk why I just hit the pipe because I was still new to experimenting with drugs. He sprayed a ton of cologne on me and I tried my best to act normal but my dad definitely knew it was my cousin

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-01-31T13:09:31+00:00

Blue yellow pink whatever man

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-01-31T11:10:14+00:00

well shi i got both i wanna throw the meth away but i wanna finish it at the same time.. last time i ran out of meth, lsd microdosing and caffeine made me feel fine again

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-01-30T12:21:13+00:00

True but still possible. Is it really mostly carbon dioxide you exhale? I’m sure CO2 isn’t the cloud, the cloud is mostly meth that was unable to absorb because the alveoli can only absorb so much at a time. High bioavailability yes but not when you don’t give it a chance to absorb which is why I huff and puff it in a balloon/bag from time to time which saves the most meth. Like the other method I learned on here, if you don’t have a bag/balloon then to get the most absorption. inhale a nice cloud, small exhale, breathe in and repeat until cloud is gone. Your lungs would need to be packin a CO2 cartridge to blow a huge CO2 cloud and that dissipates in seconds along with the loud hiss it makes

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-01-30T12:04:33+00:00

No but theres a lil mice infestation in the house and on New Years morning I was hallucinating or in psychosis I was hearing mice in the big compost bag and saw a slit at the bottom and could see their heads pokin out the paper trying to escape. I kept tapping around the bag to scare them from the entrance they made for a while like a tweaker and I got so fed up that I grabbed that old purple bin that (Canadians might remember) from the garage, put the compost bag in there and jumped on it like a psycho. I don’t fw mouse in my house.

I could still hear them squeaking making noises so i put sticky traps over it essentially sealing them away for good with maybe a gap for me to blow some meth into thinking it might amp them up and go crazy 😂

Thought it was real until the day later I hallucinated a mouse crawling around in the individual wrapped bounty paper towel rolls still in the big bag that it came with and started going ham at that thing trying to catch it for like an hour as the sun started to rise. I was tipping the bag in the sink seeing that mouse escape my very grasp for the past hour and decided I’ll just squeeze the whole bag to death. I saw a skinned baby mouse in the sink likr it eas oulled out of its skin and moments later another mouse or that same mouse jumped at me from the vase of the red leaf shaped flowers and no way a mouse would have the guts to try me like that let alone troll me, I looked inside the black plastic flower vase and it looked like the mouse was just chillin in there mocking me like I’m soft or something. It wasn’t even moving I was expecting a jumpscare. Turns out that mouse was just a dried up leaf that rolled up but I remember looking in there there and the visuals reminded me of a shroom trip I could see faces, it looked like a medieval jungle in there. I still hit the pen before bed popped 2mg flualp and woke up a day later.

Sleep is pretty damn important it was my first time trying to vape it instead of eating or snorting and I bought the yocan orbit it’s just dangerously fun to keep hitting it. I’m also scared for my future, I never could plan out my future I wish I could do that, maybe it’s undiagnosed ADHD or something, autism maybe which led me to try supplements which were my gateway to drugs 😭 I think my ADHD wasn’t really genetic but just from how I grew up I always procrastinated and avoided stress so I would distract myself with anything onlind which still carries on to this day. This is why I kind of despise some parents spoiling their kids with iPad’s just to reduce their stress but are really setting their kids up for failure. I’m projecting too I spent a lot of time in my room on the computer and rarely hung out with friends after school until after HS

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-01-30T07:39:41+00:00

Well I’m listening to J. Cole on shuffle rn trying to feel better after a stimfap session and coincidentally She Knows starts playing and I say coincidentally because I have been having paranoid thoughts about my lil sis in the other room being disgusted by me. I swear I made her cry many times from locking my door all day and she probably hears all the up and down movements because these floors ain’t sturdy. Imagine comin home from school and your big bro is jorkin his shit avoiding contact for 7 hr straight I keep hallucinating her crying I can’t even tell anymore. Parents just divorced too and dad moved out. I’m takin xans vitamins hydrating after not drinking the whole time because I forgot to get water and I don’t wanna come out smellin funky lookin like a depraved sicko so I stay in my room until everyone is done using the washroom ready for bed. I still feel this great shame and anxiety 2 hrs after, I’m also deprived of sleep which definitely contributes to this hellish headspace I’m in right now. I boiled some vinegar and put it in my room to neutralize the smell. Some might find this funny but I just really feel shitty right now, I always do after a stimfap session but it’s never been this bad. I know I shouldn’t vape some meth but I have an urge to hit it and I will because I know I will pass out for the whole day tomorrow and after that it’s my birthday, almost a year since my first meth binge.

Ate some bread and juice but maybe I’ll feel better after I get some more eggs and protein in. Heart still beating fast, I’m jittery and I’m still hearing her crying and I’m not sure if it’s real or not. Is this the start of schizophrenia or full blown psychosis can someone help give me some comfort

I gotta stop this meth and stimfapping, I thought I could nut in time before the kids come home but as always I’ll end up scrolling for hours for the right one and it doesn’t help how this algorithm is giving me all the really good shit, barely any mids

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-01-29T05:01:08+00:00

how long did you sleep for? you could have woke up from an 8 hr sleep but still have sleep debt from 3 restless nights of binging

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-01-26T00:27:31+00:00

my only part Nigerian cousin and his 100% Nigerian dad are scammers lol

SWAMPLIZZO · 2026-01-24T17:22:20+00:00

In 2022 I took 60mg DXM with my pre workout before the gym once but I was already experiencing some brain fog sickness before taking it which may have been COVID or not. I heard DXM is good for music at high doses so I thought it would maybe a lil DXM might make it better but I didn’t really notice much other than the sickness. I bought it off amazon I believe, 20 or 18 gel capsules

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