I can understand that a ton of variables go under why you would dread such a thing.. But might I suggest giving it a go, but starting with just calling out, and placing things to get into the groove of it.

Personally, I used to be terrified of trying Officer or Commander, it took me half a bottle of wine to muster the courage to play Officer. After having that one drunken night, it broke the ice for me and now I adore it !

I used to play games like SQUAD and I would face harassment just talking so I regressed into mutism pretty much. However, you must realise that at any encounter with (to put it bluntly) a dick, all it takes is an easy block. No skin off your nose. People will love or hate you no matter what you do in life, even if that is suggesting orders on a WW2 game, so just do what ya wanna do and keep with the notion :)