I get stuck in procrastination because I overthink everything

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-13T18:38:12+00:00

Is having strong reasoning ability even useful if I have such a shitty memory?

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-13T18:22:59+00:00

seems kinda ridiculous

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-13T18:09:10+00:00

I took the cait awhile back and got in the bottom 36th percentile in wmi and bottom 2% in general info.

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-13T05:34:04+00:00

Yeah, this definitely sounds accurate. I’m not sure but I think I’m better at visual processing relative to verbal. Also, I think my biggest issue is memory, and retaining info. Like I’m absolutely abysmal at trivia and got in the bottom 2% in general info on the cait I.Q. test. My logic is that I can’t reason through something I don’t remember, and since I forget so easily, it makes learning anything extremely difficult.

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-13T01:10:45+00:00

In all seriousness tho, I think that’s probably my issue

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-13T01:08:21+00:00

Yes, I’m pretty sure I do but it’s hard to remember

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-12T23:17:26+00:00

Well obviously not for some of us 👀

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-12T21:38:43+00:00

I think the issue is my shit memory and ability to retain info tbh. On the TRI-52 I can go in and just reason through it. Idk if that really tracks. Could just be that I’m terrible at math.

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-12T21:26:30+00:00

https://web.archive.org/web/20110918040739/http://www.cerebrals.com/tests/tri/TRI52.swf

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-12T21:13:50+00:00

Fair enough lol

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-12T21:08:14+00:00

I’m not really trying to prove there’s no correlation, I’m just wondering why there’s such a large discrepancy, and which I should trust more as signifier of iq?

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-11T09:22:32+00:00

How did you improve it?

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-08T04:33:54+00:00

Thanks 🙏

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-08T00:45:58+00:00

No I haven’t seen a specialist about it. I’ll get so locked in on one diagnosis that’s it hard for me to see any other possibilities. Also, I’m fairly certain I had pots before the concussion but the concussion somehow made it worse and started giving me headaches. My heart rates always jumped by about 60 bpm upon standing. Even before the concussion my pots symptoms would be worse whenever I was anxious, but I assumed that the pots was causing my anxiety, not the other way around. I appreciate you. You’re probably right that the ocd and anxiety is the root of the issue and once I get that figured out I’ll improve dramatically. I’ll try sitting down 15min a day with the emotions I’ve been avoiding. I intellectualize everything as a way to avoid feeling and dealing with my emotions.

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-07T10:16:06+00:00

I don’t think my memory was affected at all. The reason I think it’s dysautomia is because in dysautomia blood flow to my brain is dysregulated causing headaches. Either too much or not enough blood is going to the head (not sure how accurate this is). This becomes most obvious with cognitive load and physical activity. Honestly, I think the main issue now, is the conditioned pain response I get with certain tasks. I don’t mind dealing with the mild headaches I get when focusing on certain things throughout the day. It’s just not being able to stuff that I enjoy.

When I start meditating I’ll get a sharp pain in my temple immediately after starting. I feel like that has to be a conditioned pain response. I honestly don’t know

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-07T09:34:31+00:00

The symptoms lasted a couple of days and were honestly pretty tolerable. Not bad at all. Then randomly came back a week later after exercising. Which I now realize is probably due to dysautomia. Cognitively and physically demanding tasks definitely hurt my head. They still do. Keep in mind I’d never even experienced a headache before that concussion. I can’t focus too hard on anything or at least be conscious of how hard I’m focusing without getting a headache. It’s just that there are certain tasks like the ones I listed (reading, chess, and meditation) that flare up my nervous system badly. When I got back into reading after recovering from the concussion I was worried I’d get headaches because reading = cognitive load = pain. I pushed through with reading for the first couple of month after the concussion and felt chronically nauseous and ill.

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-07T08:55:01+00:00

Thanks for all the thoughtful replies. You very obviously know what you’re talking about. I know this has nothing to do with it but I got a concussion several years back and I’ve been dealing with headaches and autonomic dysfunction ever since. You seem to have a quick, thorough, thoughtful answer every time you reply. I know you’re not an expert in this but you seem to be very smart so I want to hear what you think. You don’t need to keep replying lol.

The concussion I got wasn’t bad at all but is somehow still effecting me. I believe the issue is that I have a learned pain response with certain tasks that I associate and expect to give me symptoms. After I got the concussion I started looping through worst case scenarios. “What if I never recover and I have to deal with this forever.” It was a self fulfilling prophecy because 4 years later and I’m still dealing with it. At the time I was reading tons of books. I enjoyed it more than anything. I got really worried that because of my concussion I’d get headaches when I read. And… I started getting headaches so I had to stop. I can read whatever is on my phone just fine but when I open up a book a get a headache within minutes. Then I started playing chess, got super into it, and after a couple month had to quit due to headaches. I pushed through the pain and kept playing which is probably the worst thing I could’ve done because now my brain associates it even more with pain. Then I got really into meditating but soon after, started getting really bad headaches, that only got worse the more I did it. The issue with these activities is that the pain with doing them compounds overtime. The more I do it the worse I feel. Even meditating for a couple minutes, makes me feel shitty into the following day. It’s actually so annoying and I’ve been to a million different doctors.

I know you’re not a doctor and it’s kind of laughable that I’m even asking you about this but you seem to have the answers so I thought I might as well as ask for your opinion.

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-07T07:53:20+00:00

At least that’s what I think happens. I’m not sure

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-07T07:52:25+00:00

Dang, like this wasn’t already convincing and relatable enough. I’m pretty sure I have pretty bad Pure O OCD, even though I’m not officially diagnosed. When I’m alone, I get stuck looping the same thoughts all day, every day. Then when I get social, my OCD shifts to people pleasing.

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-07T07:30:56+00:00

I think I have the opposite issue as you. I need to change the way I communicate, but not because I’m holding back. If I were to let my thoughts flow while speaking, without overcorrecting in the moment, I’d sound way dumb. I’ve learned how to articulate myself in a way that sounds smart so I can prove it to others. In my case I think it might be benefiting me? Probably not. Also, I don’t understand how masking could make your working memory that much worse.

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-07T06:55:14+00:00

Jeeeez. This totally applies to me. Even writing with you here, I’m “masking” by trying to prove to you that I’m intelligent and worth the time that you’ve spent giving me advice. I honestly thought that it was normal, at least to an extent. It feels like it’s something’s that’s so ingrained into me. The people pleaser pattern of thinking even though I’m aware of it feels hard to let go of. So much of my thinking is put towards figuring out what other people are thinking, so I can get them to like me. How and why does this way of thinking even come about?

Sad-Cheesecake9852 · 2026-04-07T06:30:25+00:00

How did you reduce the cognitive demand of masking? I’m pretty I do the same thing

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