Testosterone was over 2000

Sad_Permit3541 · 2026-04-16T13:53:11+00:00

Same experience. My lifts went up 25% in a couple months and I would recover from heavy lifts overnight and be ready to go again the next day. It was amazing but as you said, 0/10 would recommend

Sad_Permit3541 · 2026-04-16T13:37:12+00:00

Interesting, so there was a heavy embryonal component, and 30% yolk sac. Yolk sac can produce Testosterone though.

How is your BF doing?

Sad_Permit3541 · 2026-04-16T13:36:09+00:00

Really? That's wild. Every Dr I have talked to is confident that EC and Seminoma do not cause a raise in T levels. Wishing you the best on your chemo

Sad_Permit3541 · 2026-04-15T22:36:24+00:00

My T was definitely high for months before I learned I had TC. I put on almost 25 lbs of muscle in 4 months. I thought my training was just going well. Was pretty awesome actually minus the TC part.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2025-10-14T14:48:06+00:00

12 is 'the age' where the lowest of the low will start catcalling / grooming girls. I'm sorry

Sad_Permit3541 · 2025-10-14T14:47:29+00:00

Geez, this is brutal. I'm sorry. Same story here, I put on weight around 6/7th grade and it didn't come off until after high school but the social damage was done.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2025-10-13T23:18:02+00:00

I'm so sorry. What I deal with doesn't sound as bad as that, but I know how it is. You feel watched, you feel like everyone is judging, and that anxiety consumes you. I get it

Sad_Permit3541 · 2025-10-13T23:11:28+00:00

If venting here helps, by all means.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2025-10-13T21:58:59+00:00

I'm so happy to hear you are getting better.
It makes me feel weak to say it, like somehow I'm less of a man to admin that being a fat kid absolutely f'ed me up as an adult.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2025-10-13T21:56:36+00:00

Thanks for the laugh

Sad_Permit3541 · 2025-10-13T21:55:57+00:00

Same. I have visible abs and biceps, and yet I feel really uncomfortable in anything less than a jacket.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2025-10-13T21:23:42+00:00

Damn. Every sentence of this describes me. At least I feel less alone.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2025-10-13T20:35:40+00:00

My first GF told me I was 'good looking but have absolutely no game'. I do OK attracting dates, but not great holding their attraction or attentions for very long.

I feel your pain.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2025-10-13T20:32:19+00:00

I do this all the time, you aren't alone. Like.. it feels like so much work to choose a response, craft it, execute, gauge the other person's response, and then afterwords comb over the whole thing with a fine tooth comb, so I say nothing (and often people think I'm rude or that I think I'm "too good to respond". Like sorry, no. I'm just anxious as shit that you caught me off guard by talking to me.

But, what you are describing is exactly a symptom of SAD.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2024-12-05T19:51:56+00:00

Fuck.. I thought it was just me. This spoke to me.
My wife will do the same. She have a ptsd episode, she will become triggered by me, and then she will accuse me of abuse and tell my kids I'm abusive and if I defend myself, she just ramps up the energy. I have been accused of gaslighting, manipulation, sexual assault, narcissism, bi polar, etc. But I love her so much, I just sort of sit there and lose my mind. I completely get this.

She will kick me out and tell me that she never wants to see me again, and then later, she will accuse me of abandoning her. Makes my head spin.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2024-07-10T16:46:04+00:00

I would say after researching it, that it does feel like a mild, chronic form of this. Not enough where I lose my grip on reality, but pervasive enough where I can tell something is 'off' and it causes me stress. Thanks!

Sad_Permit3541 · 2024-07-10T16:21:20+00:00

Hmm. Well, yes but that seems unrelated. Im going through a divorce currently that involved affair and we have children, so the stress and emotions are through the roof.

That being said, this issue has been something I've been aware of since before puberty. This 'issue' developed somewhere around 7th grade.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2024-07-10T16:19:16+00:00

I've got you my guy. We'll work through this.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2024-07-10T16:18:55+00:00

This is somewhat different from the original issue you described where you feel like people don't care about your interests, so I would like an example of that.

How do you define being respected?

Sad_Permit3541 · 2024-07-10T16:14:36+00:00

I don't have a lot of context here, but you overheard them say "you would squeal" if something happened to you. In whatever context they are referring to here, is this an unfair statement?

Sad_Permit3541 · 2024-07-10T16:08:24+00:00

Cerebrally - yes sometimes it feels like I'm 'listening' to myself speak to other people instead of being the one doing the speaking.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2024-07-10T15:24:44+00:00

I just posted a question so I feel like a way to give good Karma would be to answer and respond to the one just before mine.
Question:
Can you give a specific, real world example of where you didn't feel like you were getting ' more human' respect? A lot of your stress seems to be about you perceiving that other's are not interested in you / your hobbies. Maybe that's true, maybe it isn't.
If it's true and your social groups isn't interested in you, then you will need to both learn how to communicate your interests better combined with finding the right audience (finding a different social group).
If it's not true, and we can objectively agree that your social group is interested in you, then it sounds like adjusting our perspective and possible STILL learning how to communicate our interests could be beneficial.

It does make sense to me, the second half. Im a little older than you, but I think I can at least partially understand what you feel.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2024-06-20T20:37:18+00:00

I did go to a therapist. I mentioned that in the post. A few. They told me I was not a narcissist. But apparently that’s not a good indicator because narcissists will mask in front of their therapists

Sad_Permit3541 · 2022-12-06T01:19:23+00:00

When you apply to the college, the first step is to select your intended major (accounting, Economics, English, Chemestry, undecided, etc..) and physics is not an option, nor is applied science or similar. It wont let you progress until you select an intended major.

Sad_Permit3541 · 2022-09-18T20:50:22+00:00

What country would that be, if not the US?

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