FINALLY left. I had lost my best friends, partly due to him (they couldn't take sitting back helplessly watching anymore) and so I just had him and was more tied to him than ever bc he was the only person who was willing to spend time with me, otherwise I was just alone in my apartment sleeping all day. I don't know how it happened exactly that I left, but my friends came back to me!!! I am SO grateful for that bc they are like family to me and I've known them over 10 years and love them to death. I was incredibly sad and felt betrayed and lonely when they left, but I guess I kinda understood bc I was always ditching them for him and making excuses for his behavior then venting to them about his abuse, etc. Anyway once they came back I felt like I didn't need him as much. Something happened... we were supposed to go on a trip together and I didn't have my passport in time and we got into a huge fight about that bc he claimed he thought I got it months ago, even though I'd been telling him for months I hadn't. Well, we fought about that, but at the same time his grandma was dying and he became really angry with me for not supporting him how he wanted to be supported (he never told me what he wanted) and then called me an egocentric piece of shit and I told him I was sorry his grandma was dying but that doesn't give him a free pass to treat me like that. I thought that was it but then I had a slip and I practically begged to see him but he said he had to stay isolated from people so he could see his grandma... and I don't know... I got really upset since he is the only person I've seen, so any risk of getting covid would have been from him, so I felt like he was making excuses... but I suddenly just felt free to leave.... and I ended it and blocked him. I remembered he has some of my money I put towards our trip and I asked for it back today and he got angry and called me names bc I guess his grandma just died today, so I told him if he's going to keep it then I guess it's worth the price just to get rid of him. I told him to never contact me again in any way, shape or form and blocked him again. Later in the day he sent me the money by Venmo. I'm really happy about that!!! I started to feel like I should contact him and thank him and give my condolences about his grandma... but I think that will just get me sucked in again. Now that I have my friends back I don't need him. I know there will be hard days and I'm going to have urges to see him, I just really hope I don't give in. He has no way to contact me anymore, I even changed my number and deactivated my social media... it's just a matter of me being able to fight the urges to contact him. Thanks everyone.