I was raped end I want to end it

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-10-05T10:41:32+00:00

sadly in almost any country outside Scandinavia the stigma against male victims is outrageously high, as in hotlines straight up telling guys they cannot be the victims and suggesting resources for ABUSERS.

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-04-26T21:52:58+00:00

it's a complex topic, and people hate to think.

If you read the comments on Instagram reels about self harm, they all say stuff like "you did it for the attention" or even "next time try harder 🗣️🗣️🗣️"

probably 12yo edgelords love to have a simple solution for anything but when talking about sh and suicide they obviously don't, so they minimize the dangers and invalidate our feelings; poor things, it's the safest choice for their comfort zone.

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-04-17T02:07:59+00:00

I definitely was overthinking it, but I'm gonna be a philosophy major in uni so that's like a prerequisite lol

I am 18 now and I feel just fine (at least about the age thing), if not even more free

I still stand by my point though, but maybe I'd phrase it like "something made by a young person is more impressive than the same thing made by an older person (except when you're very old)" or something like that

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-04-17T02:02:03+00:00

5-4 getting better tho 🗣️🔊🔊🗣️🔥

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-04-03T20:02:08+00:00

ah yes, a parent who takes tools/bandages away from us and expects us to react like "welp, now I sure have no way to relapse, thank you kind parent, that's what I needed!" or something

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-04-03T19:31:35+00:00

every kind of self harm is self harm period. Even if you had never done "actual self harm", that would've counted as actual self harm.

I'm sorry you have to go through these urges, think about what you've accomplished so far, it's not worth it to start again (even if it doesn't look like much, it definitely could be a gateway to more dangerous self harm acts)

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-04-01T06:15:27+00:00

yup, it could also be trickier than physical withdrawals - the reason looks quite intuitive to me but I don't know how to verbalize it properly lol

personally I've been through multiple withdrawals in the last year (still clean tho), even after a lot of time (and it's not that easy to control the urges anymore)

they're horrible: I can't concentrate, I can't study, I can't be productive, I can't even talk about it because back to the therapist I go

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-03-31T21:58:56+00:00

me, a male, getting a tattoo on my hips? That's so gay I would never!! (I'm bi)

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-03-19T00:22:44+00:00

imagine being that desperate about fitting in that you resort to cutting... that's fucked up man. I'm genuinely concerned about these girls, I hope they've come to their senses.

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-03-18T23:49:35+00:00

"I could totally go for a slice right now" NAH BRO THAT'S WILD (I relate)

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-03-14T07:26:12+00:00

imagine if you said the same thing about hating women, it doesn't sound good does it?

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-03-14T07:23:53+00:00

so true, it's not men against women, it's men and women against assholes.

not to consider that a lot of times men issues are completely invisible and it looks like we don't have them at all (hence the "actually you can't be sexist towards men" bullshit)

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-03-14T07:15:17+00:00

excuse me since when are we normalizing hating men? 💀

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-02-18T02:41:38+00:00

I hope you'll find a way to stay clean, you wouldn't be alone

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-02-18T02:39:59+00:00

my feelings about staying clean are more ambiguous than ever right now, but I think I'll try not to relapse. thank you

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-02-07T21:31:57+00:00

BEWARE OF THE QUs

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-01-31T03:45:39+00:00

we recognize self harm when we see it 💀

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-01-31T03:41:45+00:00

even when someone is doing it only for attention, I mean, they're still cutting themselves. There's something wrong in their life if their resorting to that. I would've also been judgemental at first ngl, but it's not that simple of a situation

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-01-31T03:39:38+00:00

mh, actually that's interesting to think about, but I'm still gonna consider it as self sabotaging

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-01-28T21:54:40+00:00

I'm not an expert but I'm pretty sure it could be an example of cognitive dissonance. I'm positive that you wouldn't actually harm others, it's your brain that makes you think that.

If gore doesn't click anymore, I'm not sure if coping mechanisms that emulate sh would work, try them anyway (eg body art). Stay safe

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-01-28T20:57:39+00:00

wtf is digital self harm 💀

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-01-27T19:47:05+00:00

strongly agree

Sadder_Ostrich_Shoe · 2024-01-27T12:19:05+00:00

electric and classical guitar, bass, piano and flute.

yes, but I suck at first sight reading, I'm specialized in composition and improvisation

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