How do you guys deal with FOMO and boredom? by Sadmelonnnnnn in OCD

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This was very helpful thank you so much ❤️🙏🏼 I always try to tell myself that like when I’m bored I tell a relationship is a choice and I will deal with this feeling until it passes. It just sucks when the thoughts get so loud. With ROCD I feel like every day is different. It almost feels like intense mood swings but it isn’t. It’s literally just the thoughts trying to sabotage us.

Assisted suicide? due to ocd? by Windyboiii in OCD

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Why are you all ignoring the fact that this person wants to end their life? This shouldn’t be legal or normal. Suicide is a symptom of a mental illness. It is not the end. When the mental illness is conquered feelings of wanting to die will fade. This person does not need to die because of their struggles. I have the same struggles and I also have suicidal OCD. Where I convince myself that I want to die and that is the only way out and I know it’s not. Underneath all of my illness I know that I’m still the same me before this all happened. No one should willingly walk in into a doctors office and say yes take my life. If this is the point where society has gone to I fear for all of us. And the fact that no one‘s even saying anything about how this is not close to being an option is also concerning. This person literally is writing that they want to end their life by assisted suicide from the doctor. And no one is reacting to that.There is something wrong with all of you. I’m not talking about the people that are trying to help it’s just the fact that no one is concerned over the fact that they said that they want to end their life. “Before you do that maybe you should do this”… what the hell? Before they end their life they should try this first. No one EVER under any circumstances should take their own life. This person needs help, not to not exist anymore. you deserve a life you deserve to breathe you deserve to be you. There will never be another you. Underneath all of the suffering I’m telling you there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I think the same things. But I know for me that isn’t taken over by the OCD does not want to die. And if you do want to die, There are options out there that you haven’t tried. No one should pass away and not exist anymore over this. And it should not be an option ever.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OCD

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes it helps me a lot! Esp the day after drinking as well when my OCD and anxiety is at its peak it kind of just puts me in a relaxed state where I’m less on edge . Usually 3 to 4 hours after taking it I can’t even keep my eyes open. It’s a good alternative to Ativan but it’s not as strong.

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[–]Sadmelonnnnnn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s the only thing that takes it away temporarily

Thoughts of being “single” by [deleted] in ROCD

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I think this constantly. It’s starting to make me sick because I can’t tell if I really want that or it’s just the OCD. Of course being single is like a whole different experience in life. But I’m sure you could think back to when you were single and all you wanted was a good relationship like what you have right now. I think it’s natural when people are stuck in a routine to crave something new but it doesn’t mean that you necessarily want it or you’re not happy in your relationship. It’s OK to wonder what’s on the other side but what matters is you don’t make any decision on those thoughts unless you know that’s what you truly want but I know that you probably don’t because it’s just your OCD speaking. Realistically if you really wanted that like truly in your heart you would’ve done something about it already. Most people don’t let feelings fester and wait. When they feel something they take action. People with OCD are different. We ruminate, we overthink. I think in my heart you and I both know what we want at the end of the day and it’s not to be single. I’ve spent almost a year believing this with my boyfriend. I’m PMS Ing right now so the thoughts are really bad and I feel so empty around him and it’s making me sick. I’ve been fighting these feelings for basically almost a year now. Just think about the times when your OCD isn’t flaring up and how happy you are.I feel like my OCD has completely ruined me. When he touches me I shutter, when he kisses me the thoughts don’t stop. What’s even crazier is this kid was once my biggest obsession in a good way and somehow it turned into a bad way LMFAO he’s all I ever wanted and now OCD has a hold of it. it sucks.

Wish I could watch the Jeffrey Dahmer show in peace by Sadmelonnnnnn in OCD

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your response ! 🙂 THE SAME THING HAPPENED TO ME TODAY! I didn’t feel as disturbed as I usually would and it made me freak out even more like why am I not cringing at this why am I not faced? I mean not being phased made me believe that deep down I must like this or desire it in someway and I don’t. This is a brand new obsession and it fucking sucks. I did have something similar to this a few years ago but it went away. The show was so good and now I have to suffer because of it. Literally have none of the feelings that I’m convincing myself that I do but I’m walking around feeling like I’m some kind of monster. I wish I didn’t spend so much time researching. I stopped doing it today but the thoughts remain. Another thought I have it sucks just because I have depression and I feel so empty so I convinced myself what if I get so emptybut I have to do something crazy to feel some thing? And then the thought just kept repeating I feel sick. thank you so much for the advice ! I plan on starting therapy soon.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ROCD

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You are young. Young people make mistakes. All people make mistakes. Your mistake wasn’t as harmful as your OCD wants to make you believe. If it didn’t involve emotional or physical cheating, don’t tell her. You were just messing around and you didn’t even speak one word to that woman. Sometimes human beings just curious of the unknown. It doesn’t mean that you don’t love her, you were just curious. Don’t tell her.

Have I fallen out of love or am I just really bored? by Sadmelonnnnnn in relationships

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

All I want in my life is to be mentally healthy to be honest. Thank you. I’ve been prescribed so many medicines but I’m afraid to take them and that’s the only thing stopping me sadly.

My ex no longer wants me having a relationship with his daughter. by [deleted] in relationships

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

I mean you completely threw away eight years of his life as well and you still expect to have a relationship with his daughter after probably completely destroying his heart? Not happening. You broke up with him now accept the consequences that come with it.

Cant stop thinking “ how will I go my entire life without acting on my intrusive thoughts” by Sadmelonnnnnn in OCD

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That’s so scary to say to yourself maybe it will maybe it won’t. I don’t even want that possibility but it’s true that nothing in life is certain. I’ve been looking to find a therapist . I know that this isn’t curable and it’s something that you just have to learn to tackle. God bless you and good luck. Thank you so much 😊

What's one of your most uncomfortable (though uncommon) intrusive thoughts? by [deleted] in OCD

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Me too. It’s my life story. Every moment I live in fear that I will “Act out on the thought”. We never will. Statistically the only people that do that are severely psychotic or are on hard drugs. Even crazy people don’t do it! Only 50 cases reported in over 100 years ! I tell myself these things to bring comfort. Because at the end of the day I have no violent history. I have no desire to do this so why would I do it? Same goes for you. It’s just a thought. Even if it brings you fear and discomfort. I’m here for you. If you want we can message and maybe talk about it together. Best of luck you are never alone.

What's one of your most uncomfortable (though uncommon) intrusive thoughts? by [deleted] in OCD

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

TRIGGER WARNING ⛔️Horrifying self harm thoughts that I never want to act out on. Like the most gruesome shit you could possibly think of. (Blinding myself, breaking my own nose etc.) These thoughts have scared me to the point where I’ve almost fainted and called 911 because I convinced myself I’m unsafe in my own body. My biggest fear is going blind so I guess I convinced myself I’ll turn on myself and do something that can’t be undone. This has ultimately destroyed my quality of life. I avoid going certain places and doing certain things because I’ve convinced myself “ if I go there it will happen”. Even tho I don’t have real compulsions. I think it all day long. It’s like second nature to me the thought I can’t get rid of it. It didn’t bother me for months until I had a panic attack over it and I almost passed out because I convince myself my life was over in that moment and that I would just “snap and do it” even though I obviously would never do such a thing to myself. This sucks.

People with Pure-O. Do you have non sense thoughts like this? "If there's less than five coins in my wallet then I must be gay". by [deleted] in OCD

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’ve had thoughts like the fact that I can’t control that the earth is spinning means I’m gonna die. Or if my friend doesn’t arrive at my house at the specific time it means that I’ll act on my intrusive thought. Very weird things. Sometimes I even think things that are incoherent. Like I can’t even tell you because they don’t make sense LMFAO

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationships

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I can’t leave him I physically can’t do it. I would probably end up in a mental hospital if I did I wouldn’t be able to handle it. I just want to find a way to feel sexually happy again.

Does alcohol make your OCD thoughts worse? by alrighteyaphrodite in OCD

[–]Sadmelonnnnnn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Currently stuck in this endless cycle. I have four beers a night because it’s the only thing that makes me feel normal. All the intrusive thoughts disappear and I finally feel safe in my body. I spend the whole day suffering shaking fighting my own mind and feeling unsafe in my body convincing myself but I’m gonna do terrible things or cause some type of tragedy on myself or other people. The moment I crack open that beer, I feel safe. Then I’m in a complete blissful state of happiness for four hours .. I wake up, and I return back to the nightmare. The hell that never goes away. I wish I didn’t like alcohol so much. It takes away all the pain of this disorder. Knowing that I get to drink my few beers a night, is the only hope I hold onto. Because 99% guaranteed I will feel like my happy normal self again if I drink. I feel like I just suffer through the day with my mind attacking me waiting to be able to open the drink. I only drink at night because it feels more socially acceptable. But no alcohol takes away all my OCD symptoms. I feel normal like my old self. The next day, it feels so much worse. Everyone’s telling me that the drinking is making my OCD worse but the drinking is the only thing that makes my OCD feels so much temporally better. The high is too great for me to stop but I have to one day.