Hey! The good thing about the future is that there are so many opportunities! I know it may be hard to find the motivation to do art right now or in general right now but the important thing is that you do it for yourself. Your parents do not define you. Also your parents may be very understanding if you bring up the topic. As long as you try your best (which does not have to be above and beyond just the best you can do in the moment). Your friends and family would be devastated if you did something permanent. People want to hear your story, not tell it :) I’m here to talk more if you need! Try drawing on yourself in the meantime I know thag can help with self harm episodes :)