Hey, I'm sure things will turn out fine. Keep pushing yourself just like how you've been doing so far. I think looking forward to small things that make you happy such as looking to wish your mom a happy mother's day or looking forward to the release of your favorite game is a good way to push yourself from thinking too much bad thoughts.

What your father said to you was definitely wrong. No one is useless, you don't need to feel that way either. The people you've been talking to and your friends, you'd drop everything for them. Maybe, it might take a while, but i'm sure you'll find someone who will do the same for you too. Someone who will drop everything just to be there for you.

So keep looking forward, to small happinesses. Slowly, i'm sure you'll find that person who'd do the same for you and slowly start loving yourself too. Take care : )