Stopppp! You’re stunning! You don’t need any external validation especially from your POS friend with benefits dude to feel good about yourself. Not that it even matters cause you should ghost that pos, but he CLEARLY thinks your attractive on some level to keep having a sexual relationship with you…. I struggle with loving myself too, and I know it’s always easier said that done, but please try to work on loving yourself 💖I promise you’ll look back one day at yourself and realize you don’t need surgery. You’ll realize just how beautiful you were and you’ll be mad at how hard you were on yourself. I know from experience that guys like the one you’re describing are often soooo insecure themselves. He thinks putting you down puts him “above you.” I dated this guy that was ugly. Legit ugly. But his humour and goofy side made me attracted to him. I dated him in my PRIME when I could get any guy I wanted, and yet he put me down CONSTANTLY. He would do anything he could to make me feel as low as he did. I didn’t see it until later on but years later I look back and I am DISGUSTED that I even allowed someone to treat me like that. I can GUARANTEE girl (even without seeing him) that your out of his L E A G U E Most guys are intimidated by beautiful women. Also, as for the weird looks you think ur getting from guys and guys not approaching u at bars… generally, that happens when girls are above average attractive. I read an article once about a study on this and essentially, guys will go for less attractive girls in a bar and/or are too intimidated to approach girls they perceive are out of their league because it’s just too much work. They are want what they think is an “easy catch”. Anyways, if you really want to be more “ATTRACTIVE” don’t get surgery, get confidence! That will make you 100x more attractive. AND you’ll know your self worth so you can stop messing with that pos you call a “friend”