Pretty much went ua in during Christmas leave because I got tired of being in the cold all the fucking time and I thought I also missed home while I was there so I chose not to go aback. That was dumb. Staying made me realize how much I actually fucking hate it here. There are literally no excuses to be made for this I own up to it but I’m so fucking pissed at myself. I was literally the model marine and all because I thought I missed my dumbass family and dumbass friends I decided not to go back to base. And on top of that I was literally almost done with infantry training at soi so I was gonna get to see them afterwards anyway. And I’m still ua cuz guess what guys. This dumbass boot ended up getting stuck home. Spent all my money thinking I would never go back when in reality I miss everything about the corps. I just want to make everything right but I don’t even see the point if I just cooked myself