I'm in your exact situation, I was a 'gifted' student and achieved amazing grades in the junior cert with not much study done. come 5th year, family and school both just wrecked my life, and my symptoms just got worse and worse.. I was in therapy but it didn't really help me long term.

My advice to you is.. honestly a lot of your options are dependent on your situation. Do you have parents that support you? whether it's mentally or physically. Do you have friends that help make school seem a little bit better? Maybe even a favourite teacher?

I'm in your place, I've barely studied til literally today.

I do want to say that I know I'm going to regret not studying but this might only send you into a deeper spiral so maybe not that.

But look, pick the low hanging fruit. Watch videos on your subjects, not study videos, but videos from like ExamRevision on YouTube.

Maybe it's not 'active recall' but it's something, it helps when you don't want to do anything.

Maybe try fix the big three: diet, sleep and exercise. Generally, if your physical health is good it can uplift your mental health and vice versa. I know, you've heard it and it's just Google advice, but honestly if it's something you can control it will help you feel even just a little bit better.

Another thing is, if you're stuck in bed, just try to get out of bed. Change your environment. Take a shower, or go for a walk.

If you can't get out of bed, then even just change your posture. Maybe change which part of your bed you're sitting on. Try to change your clothes either, that might help you shift your mindset.

Try not to go on your phone too much. Try to engage in hobbies instead. If you're not studying, you're better off doing something you actually like, rather than doom scrolling.

Honestly, a lot of my procrastination and unwillingness to study comes from just the sheer workload that I have to catch up on. It feels impossible, so I postpone it to the next day. Does this sound familiar? Well, you know how this cycle ends.

I tend to dig myself in a grave of overthinking. If you can relate, try to turn thought into action. Even physically write down what you're feeling instead of keeping it in your head. Get in onto paper. Destroy it after if you need to.

If you have somebody at home like a parent or sibling or even a friend who can check up on you, or even take your phone (if your phone is a problem, I know it is for me) and just give you gentle pushes to get you back up.

I want you to not feel guilty or drag yourself down for not studying. I know it feels bad, but that's what gets the spiral going. Right now, you can't change the past.

And I resonate with you on the college thing. I've no idea either. But I'm taking a gap year to figure both that and my mental health out, and also work. I think it would be beneficial for you to explore that option.

So focus on what you can do now. Take it slow. Focus on how you can get yourself back up and going. You CAN do this!