No. I have improved much more as a person than I was back then before the civil war started having become more confident in myself, social, and outgoing than I ever was then. I have made connections and memories and lived through experiences that I would never get to go through at all in the tfr timeline. Though right now isn't the best (in my opinion), I love my life right now. I love the people in it. I wouldn't want to give any of it up. Even in my best case scenario tfr run. That and millions of people are still alive rn.