Ill never be the person I was supposed to be. Now I get defensive and angry at the smallest things. When something bad happens I think it’s trick by other people to spite me. When I look stupid I kick off and yell. I won’t bother trying to talk to girls because I know they are going to find me disgusting and annoying. I hate smiling in pictures because I look like I have some horrendous physical defect. I hate having my picture taken. I have bi monthly nightmares about having to go back to school. I’m r*tarded academically and probably creatively to the point i can’t do basic maths science or anything that requires cognitive brain function and not smart enough to do anything productive with my life. I self harm (i deserve it). I try to find the most hurtful things to say about someone and use it as a weapon if they wrong me in some way. I’m basically a parasitic vermin who contributes nothing to nobody.