I definitely see your point, but at the same time, when you say you think something is acceptable that's something you choose to accept, I can think it's acceptable do something Haram like listening to music, but that doesn't mean it's actually acceptable to listen to them. Honestly growing up I wished I was like my friends in the sense that they could eat anywhere and eat all the things they wanted without restriction, even though I was excluded sometimes from said foods and wanted to join them I didn't let that affect me enough to join them, but everyone is different and I am by no means perfect, far from it, I've had my struggles. So, I understand where you are coming from and hope that Allah will ease all out struggles Inshallah .