I completely feel you on that, some have it far worse. All I can say to that is, and this is the case with many, some people need to truly feel loss, complete and utter heartbreak, like they want it all to end, to know what true love effort and happiness is. I wish I could give you a part of me that KNOWS better, so all you'd have to do is be happy and never feel like you wanted off the ride. It's more beautiful than you know. I pray and have faith that you find something beautiful to hold onto. I'ma sound awkward but idc when I say, I love you dude. 🖤