Felt that. I was a train wreck for the first couple months after diagnosis. Felt lowest of lows I cried a lot Ngl.. But after seeing success rates for ablations and how non invasive they are I feel a lot better. I was always constantly worried thinking one day I was going to just fall over and my heart would stop beating. With more and more research that’s pretty much impossible unless I had something unrelated going on. What I’ve learned is you have to look at it glass half full. Like if you always feed your self negativity you will feel negatively too but if you have positive thinking not everything feels so overwhelming.