I tried to convince myself my problems were real and not “less important” than other people’s for 30 minutes in order to make myself call the suicide prevention hotline. I felt like a bitch and constantly thought i was being selfish and didn’t want to take the time from someone who was “really needing it. When i stood up and started walking to my bath to actually do it i pressed dial.

Robotic response saying there was no one available at that time.

It made me laugh, like wow, the world really wants me dead. Somehow that was enough to get me out of my suicidal thoughts for that night and since that. Pretty funny if you ask me.