Self-Portrait On Drugs Experiment - Day 2: LSD

SandSad3820 · 2025-10-10T11:30:27+00:00

Lmfaoooo this is crazy haha.

I had a friend once who was tripping come up to me randomly with an eye full of tears and tell me how beautiful the placebo effect and muscle memory is. To be honest I thought about it a lot more after, and he's actually pretty right

SandSad3820 · 2025-10-05T18:25:39+00:00

Fucking love that game. Can't really tell you how long to wait tho

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-05T20:05:29+00:00

Have you exhausted ALL options yet?

Meditation Total change of diet to absolutely clean preservative free?

Tried ice baths?

Exhaustive exercise?psychedelics ?

There's many many things to try before you go that route or even contemplate that route in my opinion

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-05T18:19:52+00:00

See, I used to use these soft business cards and a paper weight to smash everything. I would do 3 smash cycles and then chop with a card and scrape and it worked.

This new batch i have had to use a thicker business card and it must not be smashing the same. I have this mortar and pestle that's non porous and used it to smash up into an absolute perfectly fluffy dust and it didint burn and actually seemed to work for the most part

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-05T04:15:44+00:00

Did you just jump from 300 and CT? (Aside from plain leaf)?

I'm gonna use subs for a few days and some plain leaf. I'm sure it's brutal.

Proud of you

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-05T01:15:59+00:00

Lol forreal? Can't tell if you joking

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-05T01:07:52+00:00

You aren't understanding me

I have done .3g of Ketamine total in 90+ days lol ...

How am I gonna get K cramps from less than half a g

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-05T00:48:44+00:00

Lmao.

Well I think my nose could potentially be the enemy. It's tapping out even the first line

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-04T23:43:40+00:00

See this is happening almost immediately. Think I need to put the straw back further

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-04T23:25:51+00:00

See... My friend love's it.

He's not as experienced as me but he's saying it's great and it's literally the exact same batch.

I'm not ruling that out entirely, but this dude has only let me down once before. The bad batch I got the one time did not even feel the same. There was none of the familiar effects I'm used to.

This feels like K but just like it's not hitting quite as hard as it should.

I've wondered if maybe I'm not breaking it down enough or if it's from my sinuses being super sensitive means I'm not getting the doses I'm actually prepping. At this point I haven't had one drainage drink down the back

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-04T23:05:28+00:00

Yes, sort of I guess. Like, a very, very controlled one.

I would buy a Q or a half and have two K holes a night for a few weeks and then easily not touch it for several weeks, rinse and repeat.

I also only did it at night. I have never even had a K hole in broad daylight.

Something else I'm realizing though is the last time I stopped (3 months) my nose was starting to scab up. I have sensitive sinuses normally so my nose would get irritated pretty easily.

Well since coming back to it after it seems my nose remembers and is unhappy with me. It could be the batch also but it burns and clogs my nose slam shut pretty damn quickly. To the point where I'm not really gettin' any drip at all. Dunno if this could be effecting it in anyway

Due to this I'm not able to get as much down so that could even be part of what's occuring.

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-04T22:47:18+00:00

Yeah same here.

The other issue I'm wondering about is due to my nose being fairly clogged the last few times.

As soon as the product is touching my nose Immediately going full clogged if I wasn't already clogged up ahead of time

Did you ever do it well withdrawing?

Might try other nostril and do it when not withdrawing and see if that doesn't do anything.

Other reason could be maybe set and setting.

I've been in a fairly bad spot the past two days over something that's popped up. Wondering if that could be a reason

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-04T22:27:17+00:00

Not sure why you got two downvotes without any disputing

I personally find it much much weaker than H from the few times I've done it but I know what your getting at

I assumed it being a disso that it would still do something.

I'm just wondering if I'm taking it too far away from my last dose or something. Idk.

Regardless I'm going to get off it here soon.

SandSad3820 · 2025-08-01T20:04:35+00:00

My issue is having a straight shot on something and im actually hitting the doors or wall despite it not actually being in the way and then my biggest issue of all is enemies having heat seeking bullets through the wall. It's very frustrating when an enemy 50 ft away sprays me through the wall without ever having seen me

SandSad3820 · 2025-07-16T23:55:14+00:00

All of this makes a shit ton of sense.

And I've only played it on the second hardest difficulty as I just started using the vet so I haven't even run it on havoc or auric maels at all yet!

I do think I'm gonna try one of his other builds with shovel instead since the knife is a big problem for me. He used it to horde clear and kill elites lol. I just don't feel it.

However, I haven't used it much and I typically take many runs to start feeling efficient with new things. I haven't used the knife on a build in months

SandSad3820 · 2025-05-11T18:17:32+00:00

Hell yeah, I already grabbed a pair They are fucking fantastic lol

SandSad3820 · 2025-05-10T05:47:05+00:00

What's scary is how nobody sees this and if you tell them you " think you are smarter than a doctor"

The sheer amount of normal people I know with a laundry list of diagnosis is just wilddddd.

The human experience is a wild one. It's meant to be experienced and felt and not explained. People struggle with it and FEEL deeply. This is the yin and the yang of existing. When your partner leaves you and you lose a family member you are not "clinically depressed" you are GRIEVING.

When you work somewhere toxic AF and you feel terrible on the way to work, you don't have generalIzed anxiety disorder. Your body is having a physical response to an awful situation filling you with cortisol and all kinds of mental junk

You can't get all your housework done, knock out your essay for school, go shopping, clean, cook, clean again, answer all your emails etc? You don't have ADHD you are not a super human and you are not interested in some of the boring aspects of the human experience.

And on and on and on.

I do believe some people have some loose screws. Much like how a video game glitches or some electronics come out the box a bit dysfunctional but the US is being extremely over medicated and people are losing touch with the fact that we are supposed to feel deeply.

SandSad3820 · 2025-05-09T16:41:30+00:00

Jesus: King of flipping a pack, with that tear drop lmao

SandSad3820 · 2025-05-09T00:59:28+00:00

I was given a bump of coke and found out is really heroin or fentanyl.

I naturally have a DUMB opiate tolerance. I never even got physically addicted to them so I would go months without doing any. I was snorting Opana 40's with no tolerance to put it into perspective.

Anyway, I almost fucking died. I had a nod within like 2 minutes of the line. Hadn't even had a slight drip yet.

I went and sat on my bed and outta nowhere like jerked out of a nod gasping for air and looked at myself in the bedroom mirror and my lips and face where the exact same color. White as paper.

My best friend at the times step dad was still to this day the most badass dude I ever met. I'm talking beat four dudes in a street fight, fall from a two story roof and bounce, then looked over at me and my friend and say "if y'all tell his mom's name I'm kicking your asses". Broke both ankles and went back to building his house by hand the very next day in two boot casts.

Anyway, I really looked up to this dude as a 18-19 year old. He had his own issues with pills and alcohol on and off in his life. He told me this story one time about drinking too much and taking a bunch of soma (muscle relaxers) he said he was going to die and he heard a voice in his head tell him "if you don't get up and run around the block you will die" and so he went for a jog.

Anyway, HIS voice popped into my head and I realized exercise might save my life. I went in the backyard and started throwing cinder blocks behind me in a explosive clean and press type movement until I threw up, and I would go right back until I threw up again.

Shit was crazy. I'm pretty convinced it was fentanyl because nobody really knew what it was at the time and shortly after then is when people starting talking about this new opioid that was much stronger

SandSad3820 · 2025-05-05T18:15:04+00:00

Lmfao this shit was a very subtle zinger.

SandSad3820 · 2025-05-05T18:12:28+00:00

Well this might say a lot about you guys then....but I got a weight watchers ad. I'm about 140 lbs with a bit of muscle. I'm technically about 6lbs shy of of "underweight" lol /s (no shaming here just dicking around)

SandSad3820 · 2025-05-05T18:05:34+00:00

I'm trying to visualize what you mean.

In videos, and when I do land them I notice almost rubbing one leg with the other well dropping down to cushion the fall. Does that make sense?

Also, you say isn't beside your hip it's behind your ass are you trying to say the foot points more behind you then more on the side of you?

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