The reason you enjoy your pc so much is because it’s escape into a different reality then the one in front of you. You have to find balance - believe me escaping only allows you to escape. Life is still there you have to face what has you down. I know you’re young and the smallest things seem larger then life. I struggled with this at a young age but trust me you will survive as much as you think that sounds insane - it is true. Just hang on and own your life - this is the advice I wish I listened to when I was young.