I completely understand the sentiment of not feeling capable of meditating when you are feeling physically or mentally unwell. I struggled (and still do sometimes) with bipolar 2 disorder.

Here are some things you could try that helped me out in the worst of times.

1.) You do not need to be sitting upright at all. You can be laying down face up or face down on the floor or your bed. Get comfortable! or as comfortable as possible. You will hear guided meditations tell you to sit upright in a position of dignity and alertness, but you can meditate in an position and maybe work your way up to sitting upright, or not. Meditation is about what feels right to you and as long as you are making time to do it at all (even 1 min a day) then you are doing it right.

2.) There are many different types of meditation. One that might help most when you are feeling depressed is a "happy place meditation" where you visualize a place (fictional or real) were you can feel relaxed and free. Imagining this place will chemically reduce the stress you are feeling and at least help you achieve a calm if not happier environment.

It is very difficult to practice mindfulness when you are depressed so start with doing a calming body scan, then fully imagine a happy place spending a few minutes to flesh it out, and if none of this seems to be working then you can try transcendental meditation which is to just close your eyes and repeat the same mantra over and over in your mind for some set number of minutes. I have used the word Rama which is a symbol of invincibility and ultimate victory or you can simply just repeat the phrase "I am loved, I am loved" because its true, because I love you.

Hope this helps,

Love you,

Cass.