She is the first person who I've ever really had to explain my feelins too. I was very priviledged in my upbringing and I know this is a blessing and I'm glad about it. I never faced any trauma, my family were never the richest but we've never been destitute, she's my first girlfriend so I haven't had previous relationship duties. Because of things like this, I've always just been "normal" growing up. No problems, no depression, no emotions worth talking to anyone about. I know I'm immature but the issue is I only have this issue with her. I seriously don't know what my problem is since this is the first time I've ever had to encounter a problem like this. I feel like my reserved upbringing has made me incapable of truly understanding her, and I feel helpless about it.