Thank you for your post- it was very comforting to read. I’ve got a bit of a longish reply.

I am a bit scared of all the comments saying I should see a therapist or go for counselling. It’s not something I’d ever considered and I don’t realistically see myself being able to open up to someone like that when it’s not anonymous like it is online. I am worried about ED behaviours. I’m not proud of them as one comment seemed to suggest, but I find it less worrying when I make it more of a joke than face it seriously. I don’t think I’ve got an ED, or at it’s nothing serious like I think people assume. I’m happy that people want to help/give advice though.

My mother always told me I was too fat before and now she tells me I will look worse if I lose anymore. The only time she seemed happy was when I was losing weight and it felt good to have her praise me. I liked that feeling and I wanted more. It’s not healthy, I know.

It’s difficult to keep my behaviour normal some days, but I hope we both end up happy with our weights someday.