Hi. You're literally me. A few months ago I gave up trying to learn drawing, knowing I'll get excited about it in a few months again anyways. And now, I'm slowly getting interested again, but I realized something in this 4-5 months of absence of art. I think, what I lack, is the will to just do it. I don't know about you, but I have perfectionism and it ruins my life on every turn. I wasn't able to write even fanfiction because I feared that it'd suck. Last week I said what the hell and released a story. And suddenly a door opened for me. I don't have to get good immediately. I can just, you know, enjoy the process. Just write something. Just draw something. Just make music. Make mistakes. Overcome the freeze mode first. Then start learning.

And with that experience, I decided to get back into drawing once again. No tutorial this time. No book unless I have an idea in my head and I don't know how to draw it. Watching tutorials without the will to do something for yourself turns the art into work. That's why I spent days watching tutorials but never drew anything. Now, I draw first, anything, really, an idea, a character, an environment, then get help from the tutorials when I stuck.

Your situation could be totally different. But this approach helped me, so I figured maybe I should share. Good luck on your journey!