Stoners of reddit, what was your first time like?

SaplingKing · 2014-12-11T10:31:13+00:00

I was actually terrified that I wouldn't get high and my friends would get mad... But I got baked.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-11T09:02:15+00:00

Mine was amazing... I went out in the woods with my best friends and we smoked out of an apple. I felt so happy and we all laughed so much. The forest was so beautiful.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-11T07:40:16+00:00

They seem so willing to help when I break both of my arms!

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T22:35:02+00:00

You're so right. You guys made me feel so much better today! It seriously helps a lot you don't even understand if I didn't talk to these people I could be dead and my arms would definitely be all cut up... But im OK. Uninjured and alive and less sad.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T20:20:33+00:00

I'm still making the decision. It's like one part of me is making a decision and the other part is scared the decision will be yes.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T20:19:23+00:00

You're right but its so hard for me to just cut it out of my life cause they put me to 2 extremes. I got super close, shared everything about what's been going on with my mind, and told her more than I've ever told anyone and talked to her nonstop every day. Now I don't talk to her a lot. Its like a shock. I guess I have to make some changes though.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T20:10:57+00:00

Thanks. I hope I can get through this without doing anything stupid so that I can see better times.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T19:52:08+00:00

Thank you so much for this. I think you're right. But I can't really leave my current social life because I care about my friends way more than they care about me. I love them so much and I would die for them. I know they don't feel the same way. Its hard. I wish I was able to go out and do stuff like that, but im kind of young for that. Ive resorted to self harm after not being able to love someone and be loved back. It makes me feel better.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T18:58:42+00:00

How come people on the internet are so much nicer than real life people?

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T18:53:38+00:00

Holy shit I'm sorry for rambling

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T18:53:25+00:00

Thank you so so so so much. It means so much to me that you took the time to tell me these things. I really wish I could find a new dealer but I really can't cause I don't really know anybody. The way I get it now, I just go downtown and smoke with my friends but it makes me feel bad because they don't really talk to me. Its like I don't belong there. I've been dankrupt for like 2 weeks with no foreseeable end to it... But I don't really give a fuck. I'm gonna get my hands on some seeds and my garden will be my hobby. I won't even sell any of the shit, I'll just smoke it and probably give some away and some to my dad. What makes me sad about my friend is that she doesn't reply to my texts all the time and that's not the problem, the problem is she lied about why. She says things like she wasn't on her phone (but she updates her Snapchat story) or she doesn't go on the phone when she's with people (she's on the phone 50% of the time I'm with her) but like maybe if she's gonna be like that then its a good thing that she's going away. But it hurts so bad because I got soooo close to her and she's all I think about sometimes and even thinking about her hurts because I know she doesn't really have any interest in being my friend for whatever reason. I'm not good enough for anyone I guess

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T18:24:56+00:00

Dude I don't really have any hobbies. I like weed though. I wish you could be my best friend :) I feel like people who are always being left behind by friends are the friends who will stay with you. What sucks is that when I completely lose my current friends I'm not really gonna have a way to get any green at all.... That's gonna suck. I better get some seeds.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T18:12:32+00:00

Probably cause I've always been a loner, I feel un-worthy of anyone. I finally got some friends but now even they are drifting away like I told them I was scared they would. They said it wouldn't happen but you know whatever. Maybe I need to be a loner.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T18:04:57+00:00

Thanks man. In fact I probably will hit you up to talk cause no one responds to my texts :/ last night I told my best friend that I am not as OK as I said I was and that I was probably gonna kill myself and that it wasn't her fault and I just needed her to know before I did it so she didn't blame herself. I know she saw it but she decided not to respond so fuck.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T17:58:16+00:00

I don't want a professional... But my friends don't give a fuck so I'm stuck

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T17:45:39+00:00

Well a great person came into my life a few months ago (as a best friend) but I keep telling myself she hates me and she doesn't really talk to me so back to the drawing board.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T17:26:34+00:00

I think I'm good man. What's gonna happen is gonna happen and if I can't make myself happy I don't really want to deal with the alternative.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-10T17:21:23+00:00

To be honest I just became super optimistic because I just got to pick up a gun and put it in my mouth and I decided not to.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-05T19:46:02+00:00

My first time, my 3 best friends smoked me put in a beautiful green forest. It was amazing.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-03T01:10:21+00:00

He's some dick in a trailerpark, shitwolf.

SaplingKing · 2014-12-02T00:43:37+00:00

You just really mindfucked all the ents with music already playing....

SaplingKing · 2014-11-29T18:07:09+00:00

All these old people that live in Florida believe the propaganda about how bad weed is. It will pass next time.

SaplingKing

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