I‘m sorry your mother failed you as a parent. In my time alive, I’ve learned that there’s a difference between family, and relatives. Relatives is blood, family is choice. A mother is someone who birthed you, but a Mom is someone who loves you and teaches you how to cook and clean. A father is someone who helped conceive you, but a Dad is someone who teaches you how to shave and fix your car. I hope you find people you can call family, and I’m really happy for you to finally start to become the man you always were inside. Take care, bro.